♥♥Just about what I have gone through every day... So it will remind me of my life path up until now... I want to express it with words... My small brain can’t afford to keep it all... The language may 'Campur2' because it’s my diary after all... who will cares anyway??? XD♥♥

♥♥Life not always happen like you have planned.. Everyday there will be surprises happening in your life.. Treasure it.. Appreciate it.. It may not always happen.. And maybe will not happen again..♥♥

Daisypath Friendship tickers

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Pergilah Sayang by Ella and Korie

Indah terasa bila cinta tercipta 
Memadu kasih janji bersama 
Bersama-sama melafaz kata cinta 
Gurau senda dan tawa berdua 

Tapi kini semuanya kenangan 
Kau pergi tanpa pesan 

Mana janjimu yang kau lafazkan dulu
Hidup dan matimu bersamaku 
Rela kau pegi walau hati disakiti 
Biarkanlah aku sendiri 

Airmata menjadi penawar 
Akanku simpan semua jadi kenangan oh... oh... oh... 

Pergilah kasih, pergilah sayang 
Tinggalkan aku (pergilah sayang) 
Biarkan saja kenangan berlalu 
Antara kau dan aku 
Pergilah sayang

*This song was very nice song...One of my favorite song in primary school time...and it was the first song that I sing in public...and it prove that I really have no talent in singing...I love Ella! You are rock!*

Sunday, November 28, 2010


Melihat ke awan..
Memandang ke langit...
Mengintai waktu yang berlalu....
Walaupun matahari tidak bersinar...
Awan yang berarak memukau pandangan....
Bagai melakarkan pentas kehidupan...
Keluhan hati yang berat bagai diusir pergi deruan angin...
Terbuai dalam khayalan..
Terjaga dari realiti...
Dibawa pergi bersama dengan awan mendung...
Namun harus kau sedar...
Realiti itu perit kerana ia benar...
Hadapilah hari dengan hati yang tabah...
Matahari tetap ada disana...
Biar apapun yang berlaku...
Sinar pasti akan muncul semula...

Saturday, November 27, 2010


Good Morning!
(so semangat k?)
Today I wake up quite early...
should improve it!
(sangat gembira...:P)
but something crossed my mind...
need to send the room key today at 12pm!
I wouldn't let the things bother me!
Don't spoil my happiness of wake up earlier than I always used to!
so what I want to do now?
get ready...
and pack some stuff AGAIN...
till we meet again~:p

Friday, November 26, 2010

Valentine By Kina Grannis

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you with me
'Cause in your company
I feel happy, oh so happy and complete

And it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

Yeah, it's a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do
Baby, I will love you
I'll love you, I'll love you

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving me kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

So won't you be my honey bee?
Giving me sweet kisses all the time
Be mine, be my Valentine

Ohhh, Oh woah, Be my Valentine 

Updated Player List...XD

Just updated my player list...
Its not the latest song...
Just randomly added some of song that I like.. :)

  1. Love Like Woe -  The Ready Set
  2. One Day at A Time - Akon Ft Enrique Eglesias
  3. Bella Luna - Jason Mraz
  4. Let Just Fall in Love Again - Jason Castro
  5. Kau Ilhamku - Man Bai
  6. Broken String ( Duan Le De Xian) - Jay Chou
  7. Tears From Polaris (Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei) - Nicholas Teo
  8. You Are The Song in My Heart (Ni Shi Wo Xin Nei De Yi Shou Ge) - Wang Lee Hom Ft Selina
  9. Down - Lin Jun Jie
  10. Permaisuri - O@G
  11. Other Side of The World - KT Tunstall
  12. Let Me Hold You - Bow Wow Ft Omarion
  13. Words - Train
  14. I Miss You - Blink182
  15. Grenade - Bruno Mars
  16. Chasing Pavements - Adele 
  17. Just The Way You Are - Boyce Avenue
  18. Do You Know -Enrique Eglesias
  19. Valentine - Kina Grannis
  20. Fly Me To The Moon - Neon Genesis Evangelion
  21. Maybe - Secondhand Serenade
  22. Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
  23. Love The Way You Lie - Eminem Ft Rihanna
  24. Mockingbird - Eminem
  25. Pieces - Sum41
  26. Lil Star - Kelis
  27. All The Things She Said - T.A.T.U
  28. They - Jem
  29. Planetarium - Ai Otsuka
  30. I'll Be Missing You - Puff Daddy Ft Lauren Hill
  31. First Cut is The Deepest - Sheryl Crow
  32. No Promises - Shayne Ward
  33. Fireflies - Owl City
  34. Something Stupid - Robbie William Ft Nicole Kidman
  35. Anyone of Us - Gareth Gates
  36. If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys Ft Usher
  37. Only One - Yellowcard
  38. Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant Ft Haley Bennet
  39. Brand New Breeze - Kanon
  40. Wind - Akeboshi
  41. Tane Wo Maku Hibi - Kosuke Atari
  42. Proud of You - Fiona Fung
*huh!the list are too long...but who care?I want to listen to all these song when I open my blog..:p*

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


I'm here again....
watching the moon shine so bright....
feel the sound that resonance in my head...
laughter, joy, smile and happiness that you'd bring...
its like the rainbow in my heart...
I used to see black and white...
and a shade of grey....
But now my world is more colorful...
you come to my world...
shine like a sun in the day...
never go away even it is rain...
and light up my night from the reflection....
you are just you...
and thats make it even wonderful....
how I wished that you are always there...
how I longed that you always near...
I'm just a tiny little star in an open sky...
and you make me feel like I'm the moon in the dark night...
your light shine on me...
I was glad that I've found you...
even though you are just in front of my eyes...
my hand barely can't reach for you...
but thats fine for me...
to see you shine is all I ever needed....


Monday, November 22, 2010

Crazy Night

Indeed it is...
Just feel want to type something here....
Not to talk about it...
because it will remain my secret adventure...
*imagination games*

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Good Morning world….
Surprised that I wake up early?
It is not surprising…
It doesn’t happen!
I still haven’t sleep yet…
Wondering when this schedule will change to ‘normal’ sleeping time…
No one to be blame,
It my own fault…
I guess I should start having a NORMAL biological time…
I don’t know when I will start it…
But for now…
It still hasn’t been implemented seriously…
Maybe should put this as my next year MUST ACHIEVE LIST…
*okay, craps with this post….nonsense!*

*just want to show off my the thing that I bought at pasar malam yesterday,still got a few color that it can change but lazy to capture all of it...:p*

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Just before closing....

Haven't sleep approximately 24hour....
I'm more and more becoming night person...
Today evening,
my roomate will go back to her hometown...
And me?
Its look like my day without roomate will appear again...
Its not a bad thing being alone here...
But it will be awkward if you already used to have roomate...
To wake you up.. 
To remind you..
Chatting, gossiping....
To lecture you, give advices...
well...she is my "mama tiri" kan....
*opsss, jangan marah~~ :p*
now she already asleep...
and left me here...
just now watching Team Medical Dragon 2...
so awesome!
but haven't finished yet,
just managed to watch 7 episode...
after wake up later will continue again....LOL..
this all I want to 'spill out' just before closing.......
Closing the 24hours without sleep....haahhaha

Thursday, November 18, 2010


Grenade - Bruno Mars

[Verse 1]
Easy come, easy go,
That's just how you live, oh,
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give.
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss,
Had your eyes wide open.
Why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, 'cause
What you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

No, no no

[Verse 2]
Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb,
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where 
you're from.
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are,
Yeah, you'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out 
my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did.
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-
bruno-mars.html ]To give me all your love is all I ever 
asked, 'cause
What you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

[Verse 3]
If my body was on fire,
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames.
You said you loved me, you're a liar, 'cause you never, 
ever, EVER did, baby!
But, darling

I'd still catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you'd never do the same
Ohh, no no no you won't do the same

*lagu wajib 'someone'...LOL...the person keep singing this song dengan semangat okay? padahal lagu ni lagu sedih...

Waiting For The End

Waiting For The End - Linkin Park

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strenght to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
Picking up those pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

*Old time favorite band! I miss all their songs! XD*

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

My Life on 2nd & 3rd of November 2009

I found this while browsing through my hard disk....
A year ago...my life quite berhambur?hahaha...*mmg selalu berhambur pun....*

My Life 2nd of November 2009

            I’m now at Perpustakaan Hamzah Sendut 1. I feel so sleepy and boring here. So I decided to type something to release my tension. Today is USM 1st day of exam. I have attends an examination this morning at DUP C. I’m seated the most in front seat. I’m so shocked because I think this is my first time seat at the most front seat. My seat number is 041. Somehow, I like the number. The paper that I attend today was introduction to management paper. I got the clue to answer but it’s hard for me to write in English because I seldom write in English. But I have the faith that I will get an ‘A’ for this subject(I didn't get A for this paper!so frustrated!). This morning, I had a strange dream. It’s like an interesting story but I can’t remember the storyline. I just remember that my brother’s, Ridwan and Raymie is inside the dream. The scariest part is when I feel that my tooth is loose. It was so strange. I never a dream like that before. And now I’m scared. One more thing is, this morning I message my dad, Tony, Ridwan, R, M, C, and K. I message them to get blessing from them but I made some typing error and it’s like an omen to my-self. Luckily realize my typing error and I correct the message. All of them already reply me except K. Before going to exam hall, I want to speak with my mom but she wasn’t home. I just need someone to talk. It’s been a long time since I had a conversation with my mom. I want to ask whether she know what is the meaning of the dream. But I really had a bad feeling about the dream. Tomorrow morning I still have exam, business statistic. I don’t have any courage this subject. It’s just that I don’t like calculate and count or whatever it is. Also want to write here, my friend that I known when I come to KL last time had confessed to me that he like me. I’m not so shock just that I didn’t expect that he will confess in that way. It is so funny. But after that day, he haven’t message or call me. I don’t know how to react this confession. Should I give him feedback or just wait until he asks me again. That day he just confessed but he didn’t ask for my answer. So I just keep quite until now. I think that better for me to go back to my hostel now. My eye lid it’s like had glue. I cannot bear my dizziness at this rate I will be collapsed if I didn’t go back sleep.

11/2/2009 3:14:23 PM-

My Life on 3rd of November 2009
            Today I was so stressed. The business statistic paper was damn confusing and challenging. And the bad thing, I can’t even answer 1 question completely. What can I do now? Just wait and hope for miracle (which is seldom happen). This morning, I had a dream again. And again it was so confusing and scary. I dream of my grandma, she was so relax. We are back from visiting our relative. I’m with a guy which is I’m not sure who he is. In my dream I have asked my grandma about the dream that I had yesterday. Strange isn’t it? She explained to me that the dream was a sign of sickness. After explaining to me, she suddenly back to ‘her’ place. She already passed away and she knew about it. She just said that sometimes she saw herself walking at this world as a human. The most surprising is I had my own house. It was big and comfortable. Suddenly, the house is rocked by sea waves. It almost sunk the house and I was shouting to call the guy that with me in the beginning but he didn’t answer me and I can’t find him. Then one of my neighbors came to my house and telling me to move out from the house because it’s like something big will happen at the beach. I don’t want to move out at first because I don’t want to leave the house. So I decided to bring the house with me. I carry the house! I walked to the village carrying the house with me. And I saw AZ and IM in my dream! AZ said that looks like I was carrying the something and asked what it is. And I answer I’m carrying my house and it was so heavy! He looked at me and laughs out loud. When I turned my back, the house suddenly became so small and almost the size of my bag! Then IM asked me where is the guy that was so strong that with me. Then I pointed my finger to my front. He sounded jealous and yet to fool me. I continue my journey to find a place to put my ‘house’. Then I was arrived at a place that my neighbor took me. The place is so scary, it look like it was haunted then I saw an old man that came out from the house. My neighbor said that the old man had been living there for a long time. The environment was so nice and the old house looked like it had been empty for a long time. And I decided to stay there. The other situation showed. I was in a bus and about to arrive to my destination. When I want to get out from the bus, someone surpass me and I was so angry because her action like so disobedient. And when I thought want to beat her, she turned her back and said that why I can’t change my behavior that always want to beat people. I was shocked, she is Debra! After that I can’t remember anything or I already awake. Last night I sleep at 11.30pm, and wake up at 3am to continue my revision on business statistic which is I can’t answer this morning. I just came back from watching Tari Tirana at TV room. The series was so nice and I was touched to see it. Now I want to study business communication. The paper was tomorrow afternoon but feel bored so I decided to type something about my life today. It’s like I back to my routine, writing something that happened in my life everyday. I already quit this habit since I was with K. Since we are not related as couple now, the habit is come back just like that. I just hope that I didn’t back to my old behavior and being taken lightly by people around me. It was so hard to build back my pride back after I had destroyed it long time ago. I just can’t let my pride broken again. I don’t have anyone that can support me to build back my pride again if I messed it up this time. I think it’s better for me to stop typing since I have to revise my business communication and maybe some of financial accounting. Adios~
11/3/2009 11:10:14 PM-

*the names of the people are not mentioned to keep the privacy...nnt kontroversi lagi...LOL*


This few days I keep sighing?
Tension with internal and external conflict..
"Kurangkan kontroversi, tingkatkan prestasi"
*Pinjam jap motto Melodi ni...LOL*
Its a reminder to you!
Yes you...
The one that typing..
ya la....who else?
*ya, I know its me...*
suddenly the song 'Selamat Malam' by Faizal Tahir singing at my ear lobe...
*obviously la~~ko kan pakai earphone....awkawkkawkaw....*
and yes...
I'm really sleep now...
Supposed to sleep around hour ago?
but I answer some question that my friend tagged me in Facebook...
The question is okay la~ But the answer quite ridiculous..... LOL....

  1. Put your music library on shuffle.
  2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
  3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
  4. Ok, go!
  5. When you're done, tag at least 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say
One Day at A Time....(alalalallalaallalalal.....adaka saya frust?this song lagu sedeh la!)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Drama King....(OMG!astagaaaaaaaaa....okay,terima kasey~*tension trus*)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Down...(wow....."baby are you down,down,down?", "Just let it be, come on bring your body next to me"...walawe~~)

4. How do you feel today?
Ayu...(Okay!ini ridiculous!so ridiculous!warghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...saya taw, mesti ramai yang ketawa mau mampus tgk ni jawapan ni....)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Superhuman...(wow....macam best...awkawkakwkawkaw...tapi mmg meaningful la lyrics dia ni....)

6. What's your motto?
If We Ever Meet Again....(LOL....adededededed....ni kali la...ganas juga?awkawkawkkaw)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Ternyata.... (okay...ini saya xtaw apa correlation dia....kalau dr lirik dia?lagila...)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Sadness and Sorrow.....(okay, its only a music with really sad irama....I'm speechless towards this answer...and maybe its also define how speechless I am about my parents?who know?I don't know~:))

9. What do you think about very often
If It Kills Me..("all i want to do is love you?  a kind much closer than friend use.. " alalallaalaalla.........*pengsan jap*)

10. What is 2 + 2?
With You...(hah?benggong)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
Fa Ru Xue @ Hair Like Snow....(apaka?kawkawkawkawkwakawkawkawkaw...)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Quando, Quando, Quando....("tell me when you will be mine~~~"wow...I LOVE THIS SONG!!Every lyrics seems so meaningful....*terawang2*)

13. What is your life story?
Selamat Pagi Sayang....(hurm..maybe in the future will song this song to someone?hahaha...)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
How Do You Sleep....(buduh!awkawkakwkwakaw....mungkin I want to be a person yang tdur more consistent?LOL)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Smile....(OMG! OMG! OMG! "you better than the best....I'm lucky just to linger in your light")

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Live High.....(wow, this song was very nice.....motivation song?:D)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Do You Know...(alalalal.....this song?adaka kamu mau mengejek saya ni?Damn!"do you know?do you know?")

18. What is your biggest fear?
Moonlight....(moon....its mean something to me....fear?I'm not sure....but this is only music...i dont know...ya ka?)

19. What is your biggest secret?
Fireflies...(alalalalalala....if this is my biggest secret...Interesting though...XD)

20. What will you post this as?
I'm Yours....(baikla.......XDDDDD....padan sungguh la kali....LOL)

P/S: Baiklah...some of the answer make me laugh like moron here....apaka~~LOL

Monday, November 15, 2010


that changed my mind nitsuite anata...
and watashi no kumatte watashi no kimichi....
I started wondering since that...
it started there....
you  make my night nemurenaito naru...
anata wa so real....
Yes I know anata wa real....
anata no egao was so bright yume no naka de....
I hope that I can touch anata no kokoro...
Hope that can anata no kao ni fureru...
while anata ga nete iru..
and hoyo suru all night...
watching anata ga nemuru peacefully....
and hoping that taiyo wont kagayaku....


*I will keep those words for myself..*


Someone asked me this question last night....
"Do you still love someone?"
the moment I heard this question....
thats my respond....
Because I never thought I would get this question...
And off course since we play "The TRUTH Game", I have to answer it honestly...
I tried my best to give the most sincere and honest answer....
and I guess yes I answered it honestly...the truth and only truth that I perceive...
Anyway thanks for the question thought....
It gave me better direction of the state of my feelings...
I mean the past....*reminisce the past remind me many things that already happened...*
I would not elaborate the answer here cause its only between us*pinky promise*... :)
That the only question that I got asked last night....*still got 1more, but don't want to mention about it...LOL*
I think I should sleep...
Missed my bed so much....
its calling me now.....
*here I come my bed!LOL*

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Re: Re: Exam Paling Sandi

I'm about to sign out just now.... and I saw this post Re: Exam Paling Sandi... Thanks a lot!! I miss you so much...Now I wish I just can go there and doing crazy stuffs with you...*squeeze~squeeze...LOL*


Just arrive at room around 1/2hour ago?
Yesterday I was very busy....
I didn't sleep for 24hour?
And its not only about study....
exams, meetings and have fun...
a bit BLURRED because of not enough sleep?
then act like moron that didn't have feeling when almost LOST my I.C.
but last night is just soooooo fun....
*I LOVE the 'TRUTH ONLY' game...;P*
woke up almost 12pm today...
feeling so guilty and awkward because I'm the only person that still sleep...
then having 'brunch' around 12.30pm...
'study' a bit....*finger crossed*
went out to print out some past year questions...
play monopoly card game...
win few rounds but not feeling like winning...
then suddenly feel like I lost all my energy....
and releasing negative aura...*I think so...*
feel guilty because again because I spoiled the day....
I should start applying what I have read...
Now still like 'taugeh' mode...
no energy...the more I push it, feel like moving corpse...
Okay, I have to stop here...
still got exam tomorrow...
after tomorrow, I will CHARGING back all the positive energy....