Lagu?

Amaran: Bahasa rojak dan rosak.

Sebenarnya tiada benda pun mau tulis cuma bosan. Masa tidur belum lagi kritikal. Hahahaha. Ok la, mari kongsi lagu-lagu baru (rasanya) yang saya dengar beberapa minggu ni di radio. Lagu-lagu melayu secara khusus. Sangat menarik. Lama suda nda layan lagu melayu ni buka radio seja macam2 lagu menarik. Hahahaha.

1. Anak Kampung - ok, yang ni mau muntah sudah dengar. dari versi original, di bahasa melayu-kan dan sekarang suda upgrade pigi rap. macam2!

2. Kalau Aku Kaya - ini sangat catchy, asal dengar lirik mesti senyum2. rasa comel pun ada. rasa macam mo sing along seja d opis tu. nyanyi dalam hati jak la. kekekeke. "Dia panggil aku sir aku panggil dia der~"

3. Lelaki - peh, lagu straight forward. mcm lagu orang frust seja. tapi asal saya dengar ni lagu, saya suka dengar muzik dia. "Lelaki tak gunaaaaa~" ambek kau. hahahahaha

4. Jerrypah - ini lagu paling manang. saya nda paham tajuk. serius! tapi saya suka lagu dia muzik dan lirik sama2 kiut. bwahahaha.. 

5. Rembau Most Wanted - masa saya dengar ni lagu, otomatik teringat satu orang. hahahaha. sekarang n9 semakin rancak aaa.. kekekeke. thumb up!

6. Terima Kasih - ini lagu rock sweet. paling! asal dengar ni lagu mesti senyum. dulu ada dgr, tapi nda peduli, sebab jarang buka radio, youtube pun jarang2 on. dan cerita mcmana saya boleh p menyiasat ni lagu pun buli tahan juga la..hahaha.. terima kasih sayang. :)

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Okay, tiada idea suda. wifi uni block radio online. so tia dapatcheck carta. ini seja yang buli ingat. malas mo pakai otak heavy2, mo tidur! mo p keraja. babai

Gloomy day

Its a gloomy day.

Been sleeping for straight 12 hours! *awake two times and didn't bother to get up from bed, so fall asleep again* Feel so down, extremely down. Well, this is like being the typical me. I'm easily affected by extreme mood change. Wake up, clean up room, fold clothes and after this laundry. The laundry maybe after grab some food at the cafe. Haven't eat anything for the past 12 hours! 

Been thinking very hard this few days. Go home or go away. My current emotion tell me that I should go away, but my head telling me to go home, first. Things really messed up right now. Probably I should go back first and find job at my hometown. To be honest, I don't have any career planning. Then why I went through all the hassle to study over all these years? For the sake of feeding my satisfaction, ego to be precise. I never promised my grandma to further my study, but I did it to fulfill her wish because I didn't see her in her final moment. She did visit me in my dream though.

If I were to set goal for my future, I will be strayed by my over fantasy perfect living. Too good to be true. Reality is kind of pissing me off now, but I just go with it. I become afraid to imagine my future, to dream. I never really plan anything in my life. I hate the fact that I keep comparing myself to others that seems to be just fine. I know they have their own hardship but I find it hard that they can do it and I can't. I have this feeling of don't want to be lower than anyone since I was small. Maybe that's the reason I tried to do everything but never actually master anything. 

Try everything, master nothing. 

I live my life by believing that it's better to know everything. But everything seems to be so unreal right? And the fact that I have commitment problem is just so obvious. I have extremely spike and downfall in emotion and motivation. Long-term commitment. There's a time that you will feel so down and feel commitment become a burden. Where you don't have freedom to choose whether to hold on or move on. 

Life is a constant battle. Which bridge to cross, which bridge you should burn. And the bridge is not there forever.

I feel so tired and want to move on. My alter ego telling me that to stop halfway is not my style. I don't want to lose. I want to accept the fact that I can't do everything but I ended up doing nothing. Totally. 

People said time will pass by, time will tell, time will heal, time will show you the way. But time is what we are lacking. So much to do, too little time. 

Anyway, I have to set new goals in my life. It is to tiring to live your life everyday without knowing what you want to achieve. I refuse to live that way. 

Its gloomy day. And I want to keep a little bit of sunshine in my inner self.

Jun

*tarik napas panjang-panjang* .... Hah!

Hi! Mo dekat satu bulan tidak menulis sini. Peh, ada seja mood mau menulis, tapi bagi keutamaan kerja lain. Kerja la sangat kan? Hahahah. Jarang ba suda buka laptop sekarang. Mana tahan, di opis suda satu hari tgk skrin, menaip2 takan2, takanan la! Huhuhu.. Balik bilik, buka laptop untuk tgk anime seja. Hahaha. kerja tidak jalan, blog tidak update.

Teknologi canggih suda, boleh tulis diari online. Tapi lain la ba perasaan kalau menulis di kertas, feeling habis. puih! hahahaha. 

Jumaat, 14/06/2013.

Semenjak praktikal ni, semakin menjadi pendiam. Kalau bising, bising berabis. Kalau diam, diam berabis juga. Memang kaki extreme. Hahahaha. Kalau prestasi naik, naik la mendadak tu. Kalau prestasi down, down la berabis. Sandi juga la. Walaupun nda la campen dalam kerja skrg, saya rasa saya suka juga praktikal sana. Nda puas hati, tapi kepala buli tahan juga logik dia. Betukar suda saya jadi si pendiam. Hahaha. Dari dulu pemberontak, skrg memberotak dalam jiwa seja la....

Bisuk2 la sambung, mo buat kerja kunu. HAhA. babai. :)