♥♥Just about what I have gone through every day... So it will remind me of my life path up until now... I want to express it with words... My small brain can’t afford to keep it all... The language may 'Campur2' because it’s my diary after all... who will cares anyway??? XD♥♥

♥♥Life not always happen like you have planned.. Everyday there will be surprises happening in your life.. Treasure it.. Appreciate it.. It may not always happen.. And maybe will not happen again..♥♥


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Saturday, May 23, 2015

Putaran

Hari yang indah.

Semenjak meniti hari menjadi seorang penganggur, semakin rajin mencurah emosi dan kata-kata. Hari ni, tiada sebarang aktiviti khusus. Jumpa kawan di Petaling Jaya. Tapi sebenarnya kalau ingin melakukan aktiviti, sekarang Putrajaya ada Festival Belia. Mungkin destinasi selepas ini. Kalau dah malas sangat, balik rumah, layan anime/drama. Itu memang sudah ada 'bekalan'. Tapi rugilah kalau tidak pergi Festival Belia, bukan selalu ada. 

Bercakap pasal aktiviti-aktiviti, teringat masa dulu-dulu. Semasa di kampung, semua aktiviti menarik hanya mampu ditonton di kaca tv. Kemudian, berpindah ke Pulau Pinang untuk menyambung pelajaran. Mungkin mempunyai lebih banyak peluang. Tahun pertama, menyesuaikan diri. Tahun kedua sehingga tahun ke-empat, banyak aktiviti pada peringkat Universiti. Pencapaian palin menggembirakan, memenangi tiket untuk melihat konsert Jason Mraz! Pengalaman yang amat berharga. Kebanyakkan aktiviti masih tidak dapat dihadiri, sebab lokasi jauh di utara. Selepas habis belajar, berhijrah ke Putrajaya. Banyak aktiviti yang dianjurkan namun kekangan kerja menghadkan penglibatan, kian lama kian pudar keinginan menghadiri. Dunia, bila sesuatu itu jauh untuk dicapai, keinginan membuak. Tapi bila di depan mata, semakin pudar keinginan menglibatkan diri. Apa yang telah terjadi?

Remaja telah lama pergi, dewasa meningkat tinggi, harapan dan cita kian malap dari diri. Wahai diri, apa telah terjadi?

P/s: semasa mula menulis, semangat itu masih ada. Sekarang sudah pudar. Kerana? Diri tidak suka dipaksa dan tidak mahu terpaksa dalam membuat sesuatu perkara. 😩

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Commitment Issue

I still remember. Last time I didn't mention to anyone about my plan in life. Reason? I hate it when it doesn't happen the way I said it. Obviously my pride will be trampled. When I say it, I have to do it. Such a commitment. 😩

Well, now I've said it. I have to make it become reality. Probably its a good thing. We'll see.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Changes

Life is a roller coaster ride.

I strongly agree with the phrase. Its not only exciting but its also have frighthening, insecure, awkward and full of emotions involved. 

Currently, I could say that my life in messed up situation. I lost in emotion and submitted my resignation letter. Hahaha. I didn't regret for my resignation, just a bit stuck. I don't know what I want to do in my life. Serious shit. 

The challenge. Changes. I'm a flexible person with impromptu element. But, that doesn't mean I'm flexible for external changes. It will take some time for me to adapt. I believe that, experience are the key for better adaptability. 

Its time. Time for me to be more open to the world. Open mind for the challenges and issues ahead. My life isn't over. I'm just having difficulties because I can't find my goal in life. Damn. Its almost 2 years since I graduated. Still the indecisive, insecure. Probably, I need time off just to find my direction. 

Its quite hard for me to walk away from my life now. I love the companion and friends but the environment is pressing me hard. Okay Esther. Life must go on. Take charge of your own life. 

P/s: I should do this earlier. Somehow I feel calmer. These few weeks really draining me. Alright. Keep your head up.