♥♥Just about what I have gone through every day... So it will remind me of my life path up until now... I want to express it with words... My small brain can’t afford to keep it all... The language may 'Campur2' because it’s my diary after all... who will cares anyway??? XD♥♥

♥♥Life not always happen like you have planned.. Everyday there will be surprises happening in your life.. Treasure it.. Appreciate it.. It may not always happen.. And maybe will not happen again..♥♥

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Thursday, July 23, 2015

Thursday Frustration

Thursday. I'm trying to figure out what actually I want. If this is the right decision for me? Would I regret after all these years? The situation are not much different but not the same. I'm stuck here and still trying to make some decision. Should I let this go or should I just be cool about it? The challenge is real. Would I spend the rest of my life to actually wondering 'what if/maybe/I should' . I could fall into despair. And if I'm despair, I will disappear. I really should take a break from all this wondering. Nothing is for sure. What I'm waiting? 

P/S: it is one of the night when I'm wondering what would this lead to? Apart from that, I have others important matter to be resolved. For this kind of current wondering matter, somehow deep down I know that this will not be resolved soon. It will take some time to make some important decision. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Rant on Tuesday

I've been jobless for almost a week. And its killing me to actually sits at home doing nothing. Its annoying and tiring at the same time. 

Anyway, there's few thing that still pending. I need to figure out what should I do about it.
1. My father are coming to send my youngest brother that I never meet to private university next week. He ask me to find accomodation for him and his son. 
2. I need to find accomodation at my new place. I'm going to move out from Putrajaya soon. Thank you for the memories. I have to move on.
3. I need to find a part time job for this time being. Probably will go out tomorrow for job hunting. Best of luck there, its school holiday season. I need some income too.
4. Relationship? Lets see how this story goes.

I have a lot in mind for my new place. I want to stay in a nice place so I wont be too stressed even if I'm alone. This one year quality of life quite okay but I will do better for this coming year. 

After living for almost 3 decades, I feel that the concept of in a relationship might not worked well with me. Have to find new approach to make this more reasonable for me.

About religion? I really need to make up my mind? Well, life is unpredictable. I don't know when my time will come and strike me. 

P/S: My mind start wandering and my fingers keep typing. It became harder for me to go any deeper than my current writing. Emotion on rampage but I don't know how to express all of these. This is what I called fucked up moments. #keepliving #keepbelieving