♥♥Just about what I have gone through every day... So it will remind me of my life path up until now... I want to express it with words... My small brain can’t afford to keep it all... The language may 'Campur2' because it’s my diary after all... who will cares anyway??? XD♥♥

♥♥Life not always happen like you have planned.. Everyday there will be surprises happening in your life.. Treasure it.. Appreciate it.. It may not always happen.. And maybe will not happen again..♥♥

Daisypath Friendship tickers

Friday, December 31, 2010

Its the last day!

    Yeah.. Its the last day of December! And its 3.40am in the morning. For a nocturnal species like me, yes, I'm still awake. Nocturnal. Hahahaha.

Okay, what I want to write this morning? Hurm. 

     Yesterday, about more than 24 hours ago, I was doodling some words at my book. I write my life (the people that I know) this few months. I've known some people that make my life colorful past few months. Not only the new people but also credit to my friends that give me reasons to smile and go through my days. (macam mau mati la pula...palis2) I wouldn't mention who are the people, but I believe they know who they are. Thanks for coming into my life. My life become more meaningful from the moment I meet you guys. Writing few words last night make me reminisce back all the people that meaningful to me. I miss most of my close girl friends. Guy friends? (It would be hard to list them all out...hahahahaha) I've known so many guy friends but those girl friends closer to my heart I guess? :) But, friendship bonds are hard to explain. There's a few guys that are close to me. But I guess the guys that really really close to me are my brothers. Kind of lost contact with some of my close guy friends back then. You are not reading this post but I hope you still remember me.

     I also scribbled some words about my family. And nothing much to say. So simple but yet very complicated. So the best way? Please don't mess your brain. 

      Since today its the last day of December, it would be the beginning of January. Hence, it shows that its the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011. Nothing much will change, I'm still me. But I admit that, improvements should be made here and there. For this short of entry, it took me around 30minutes to think, write and plus advertisement program touring to Facebook. Hahahahaha. Good mornight world! Its time for the nocturnal creature to roll at her bed! XD

Thursday, December 30, 2010

New Camera!

Finally I bought a camera for me...
*yeah, thanks to my financial supporter @ my special man that more special than SPECIAL BOY/MAN FRIEND for these 20 years!*LOL
Its in my 2010 end year wishlist..
*I think I already mention it before*
Before this I listed LUMIX as the camera that I would like to have.
But I changed my mind today...
And I purchased EXILIM instead!
I was influenced by the salesman..
The way he explained the camera functions seems very convincing to me..
*I'm not attracted to the salesman okay?hahahah*
Its amazing how a salesman can make a thing that didn't interest you make you crave for it!
Back to the main object here!

*This is it!*

      It has a 3-inch screen, 4x optical zoom, 10.1-megapixel resolution, and the option to capture HD video. It has 2 interesting features, family priority and make up function. The first is family priority face detection. You access the 'Set Family' function, snap photos of your loved ones, and the camera stores them internally and gives them focus priority next time you take a picture. The second innovation is Make-up Mode, which puts a quick Photoshop-style airbrush job a button-press away. ......................................


#Okay! I'm not good in explaining. And I'm not good with details. If you want to know more about this camera, search it by yourself. What I want to write today is just, I BOUGHT A CAMERA!*minta puji..LOL* And not forgotten, thanks to Esteranza Victor Junior (full name tu Joe~) because accompany me and help me with my decision just now.#
The 2006 Diary posts is stopped due to the diary is already SEALED. hahahahahah...

The END of something means the START of something else.

The start of new semester

     Today, its 30th of December 2010. Besides I'm still having my fever, there is no story about today since its only started 30minute ago. Then i will start it with 29th of December 2010.

*29th December 2010

     Fever! Not football fever, assignment fever or class fever. Its a real fever! All my plan today was spoiled! 1st class of International Business, miss it. Lying on my bed until around 3-4pm today. Really helpless. I guess this fever would not heal quickly since I restricted myself from taking any Paracetamol. But I do hope this fever will heal faster. I hate the feeling of hopeless lying on my bed.

*28th December 2010

     Missed TITAS class! I guess I should start to get used to wake up EARLY every morning, since many of my classes will be held in the morning. Its not bad actually but the probability I will miss the class due to overslept are VERY HIGH. Attended the Service Marketing class but the lecturer didn't show up after we waited for 30minute. So no class. Went to school and register International Business tutorial. Its only Tuesday and all the "chantek" slot already full! I have to register my tutorial on Monday slot! *spoiled my Monday FREE*. 

*27th December 2010

     Semester open! Nothing interesting happened but its the same like previous semester. A busy day to register subjects that can't register online.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Confidence Tips

     Well, I browse through old magazine just now and found this tips. Confidence tips! I just want to share it in my blog for those who read my blog (if there is) and reminder for me as well. I'm not saying that I don't have confidence in myself but I think I LACK of it. There's time when I feel very confident and no confident at all. I believe out there, there's a lot of people that stuck in that kind of situation in their life.

Now here we go, confidence tips!

1. Focus on things that you do well.

*Spend more time doing things that you're good at will make you feel more confident.

2. Power of speech.

*Smile when you speak to modulate your voice. Others will respond more positively on what you are saying.

3. Negotiate more "me time".

*Spend time doing things that you want and not only things that you have to do out of duty. Appreciate yourself.

4.Be assertive.

*Assert yourself about your feelings and emotions without alienating others.

5.Visualize success.

*Visualize and use positive phrases to motivate yourself. Do it every morning for few months and you will start living it.

6. Just relax.

*Relaxation is vital for creative thinking and creative thinking will help you solve problems. The more problems solved, you will become more confident.

7. Become a winner.

*Think yourself as a winner. When you are doing things that you like and enjoying it, you already a winner. 

8. Stick with friends

*Surround yourself with caring people and make sure they make you feel good about yourself.

9.Deal with disappointment.

*Allow yourself time to be upset. Scale your failure and give time to grieve it. You will deal it quickly and avoid erratic cycles of highs and lows.

10. Turn yourself inside out.

*Focus on others, look around you. You'll become more confident as others start to responding to your openness and interest in them.

Thats all for this post. Have to go to bed now. Got class in the morning to attend. Night world..:)

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Second Semester!

Its 26 of December 2010!
Its the final Sunday of semester break...
Tomorrow is the start of new semester...
Another semester to go through...
Hopefully this semester will go through smoothly...
*based on experience? NO WAY!*
Result are already posted in student profile...
Frustrating result but already expected...
*You know it when you can't even answer simple exam question*
Too late to regret about the past...
But not too late to improve isn't it?

Besides of second semester that will begin tomorrow...
New Year is also around the corner!
Less than a week and we will be on 2011!
This year I should start listing my resolutions!
*I hope I have time to brainstorm what to achieve in 2011*

-Till the next post-

Friday, December 24, 2010

Last Christmas by George Micheal

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again


(Oooh. Oooh Baby)

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Oooh Oooh
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
(Gave you my heart)
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Next year
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
who'll give me something in return
I'll give it to someone
hold my heart and watch it burn
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone special
I've got you here to stay
I can love you for a day
I thought you were someone special
gave you my heart
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone
last christmas I gave you my heart
you gave it away
I'll give it to someone, I'll give it to someone 

*Tomorrow is Christmas! I'm far away from home.. Even if I'm home, I'm not celebrating it anyway.. There are lot of Christmas songs but this song  keep playing in my mind.. Merry Christmas to all people out there..XD*

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Movie List watched!

Released on January 2010
  • The Spy Next Door #
  • Tooth Fairy #
Released on February 2010
  • Percy Jackson and The Olympians : The Lightning Thief
  • My Name Is Khan #
Released on March 2010
  • Alice In Wonderland
  • How To Train Your Dragon #
Released on April 2010
  • The Back-Up Plan #
Released on May 2010
  • Iron Man 2
  • Shrek Forever After
  • Prince of Persia : The Sands of Time
Released on June 2010
  • Marmaduke
  • The Karate Kid
  • Toy Story 3
  • Grown Up #
Released on July 2010
  • Despicable Me
  • Predators
Released on August 2010
  • Step Up 3D
  • The Expendables
  • Nanny McPhee Returns #
  • Scott Pilgrim Vs The World #
Released on September 2010
  • You Again
Released on October 2010
  • The Social Network
Released on November 2010
  • Unstoppable
  • The Next Three Days
  • Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows Part 1
  • Rapunzel : Tangled
Released on December 2010
  • The Chronicles of Narnia : The Voyage of The Dawn Traders

*Malaysian Movie watched this year
  • Adnan Semp-It #
  • Evolusi KL Drift 2
  • Semerah Cinta Stilleto
=> This is the list of movie that I'd watched this year. I can't remember the order, I just list them down according to their released date/month. The movie that had (#) is the movie that I watch instead of from the cinema . Maybe there are more than these, but all I can remember is only all these. Its quite surprising for me since I'm not the type that will go to cinema to watch movie before this. Now its like......Okay.. And its a sign that I have more sources to spend my little money. T.T <=

Friday, December 17, 2010

The Bag Challenge

This bag challenge I got it from my friend...
She is my room mate, my sister, my 'mama tiri'..
(jangan marah Dith~)
She posted this challenge last month but I didn't have any time to do it...
It was exam month...
After that I'm busy with university activities..

1.Pesta Sukan dan Kebudayaan Satu Malaysia
2.Sukan Rakyat 1Malaysia

Initially I registered to join FestKum.
But I cancel it to have time to do other things...
(which is obviously no!)
Now its too late to regret it...
Just accept and stop complaining...T.T

Back to the main topic..
Bag challenge!

Recently I bought a new bag at Kuala Kurau...
So this is my new bag..:)

This bag is quite small compared to the regular bag I always buy..:p
Nice isn't it?
The price also quite cheap..:p
Whats inside?

2. Keys
3. Lip gloss (its inside my bag but very seldom use it.:p)
4. Pen ( Borrow from friend during Sukan Rakyat 1Malaysia. In the end, didn't manage to return it.:p)
5. Connector (don't know the name of the thing actually..:p)
6. Bookmark (Esteranza gave it to me.)
7. Eye drop (My eyes got something growing in it, so now have to use it)
8. Comb
9. Handphone 
10. Hair clip
11. Hair band
12. Ring
13. MP4
14. Sunglass
15. Coin purse
16. Watches (the stainless steel was present from my previous boss and the pink one I bought recently last month.)
17. Hair clip and rubber band(getah rambut?LOL)
18. Tissue (this one is funny! I'm not the type that will bring tissue but this one stuck there when I bought it for emergency purpose..:p)

Feel so relieved!
At last managed to post this!
Okay now Who I want to tag?
1.Lally Liong
2. Marisa Wong
3.Shakina Chu
(Whoever read and want to do this...please do so..I don't know who else I want to tag..:p)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

2010 end year wishlist

Its already December!
and yes...
I do have things that I want this year before it end...
a camera and a vacation!
Maybe the vacation can be tolerate since this year I've gone to many new places..
But Camera?
I want it so badly!
No need to be DSLR camera..
its 'gila kuasa' la....
The option of camera that I would like to have:




For this time being...
I only discover these...
Later I will find other options...
Got things to do right now...

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Crowd and You

Stand in a crowd,
Looking at my sides,
Trying to find a path,
That can get me out.

You come from the back,
And reach me through the crowd,
Held my hand and hold it tight,
Make me feel safe and warm.

Just you and me,
We shine and spark,
In the sea of people,
Its only us...



Its just sometimes
You out of my mind
But all of the time
You have it all
My mind, my heart, and myself
I've been wondering
Is this a sign to me?
Is this real for me?
What you have done to me
Just your smile make my heart lighter
Only your voice keep playing inside my mind
Only you that I wanted for all the time
All I want is you
See you soon
Inside my dream..


Monday, December 13, 2010

12 December 2010

        Today is the Sukan Rakyat 1Malaysia competition day! Enjoying the Sukan Rakyat. I joined the Galah Panjang, Laga Ayam, Ketinting and Gusti Lengan. Excited mode! Really into all the games! Especially the Galah Panjang. Because of this game, I have known for my violence side (memang ganas pun~~). The best part of this game is 'bermandi lumpur'. Really missed the moment. MANDI LUMPUR. The funny thing is there's a team that saying they afraid to face our team because I look so violence.LOL. We lose this game because of coin toss(not satisfied actually). Although we only got 3rd place, but it was so damn fun! And the Gusti Lengan. So funny okay? Our team got 1st place in this game. Hahahahaha. Laga Ayam? We got 3rd place. Get to know some of the villagers and also students. :D

        Then we went again to Kuala Kurau! Went to a temple there. The view is so nice. And again, I'm amazed to see the Chinese fishing village. Then go back using the Tg Piandang road. The reverse of yesterday route.LOL. At Kuala Kurau buy a bag (too many bags already). Then we go to Riyas and go to the Pasar Malam there. Its nearly close when we reach there. I buy a cloth(its not a shirt). Then waited for the Engineering Campus Gang and go to dinner at Sha Sha Cafe (forgot already the name of the place). Eat and chat with them for 3hours! (memang xda keja la).

        Now? As usual, inside hostel room, FB'ing and blogging. Want to go to sleep now because have to wake up early tomorrow. Back to Induk! Before signing out, I want to thank all my friends for the marvelous and enjoying experience that you guys bring to me during this Sukan Rakyat and also the Majlis Belia Malaysia event. I'm not joining the Festkum to have some rest before the semester open. To Induk gangs, thanks guys! The friend that I've known through these events, thanks to all of you and nice to know and working with you all. Till we meet again. :)

*now excited mode going back to Induk! Good Night!*

Sunday, December 12, 2010

11December journey...

        Today I went to Tg Piandang and Kuala Kurau. It’s not planned actually. Just suddenly feel so bored and invited some friend to tag along. On the way to Tg Piandang, I was so amazed. The view was so nice. It’s really a village environment. With the paddy field, the coconut trees, the fresh air and kampong houses. Feel very calm and happy. Then we reach at Tg Piandang town. What attracted me about this town is, it is dominated by the Chinese people. At Penang there are also Chinese village near at the jetty but I don’t know maybe I rarely saw Chinese village? *:D* Then we went to Kuala Kurau because we didn’t manage to find the Tanjung. *LOL* Before the turn to the town, we stopped under a bridge. It’s a car bridge, like flyover? It’s was a fishing village jetty. Remind me of Mengkabong, Tuaran. Kind of miss the environment of staying at fishing village. It might not the sweetest memory I had, but it still one of the history in my growth process. Where you alienated because you are different from others? But luckily I managed to communicate with the villagers. By holding to the malay saying, “Malu bertanya, sesat dijalanan”. In my case, it’s not that ‘malu’. But it more to, “If you are too shy to mix around, you will keep alienated”. (That just explain that I’m ‘tidak tahu malu’ type of person? Hahahahah I don’t care!) Okay, back to my journey today. Then we heading back to USM Engineering Campus since it already 6.30pm (we have activity to attend at 7.30pm). Its only take around 30minutes for us to go back to USM and taking 1and a half hour to reach Kuala Kurau!

        8pm, we depart to Kg Sg Kechil. Attending a ‘kenduri’. *;p* Actually we having a Malam Mesra with the villagers. The efforts of villagers to do the performance really touched my heart. They prepare a nasyid, and dance performances, a Chinese dance and Indian dance. USM also performed in the event. Overall it was OK. But the sound was not satisfying. They played the song wrongly several times and it was too loud! Okay, I should cut this off. I will end up complaining about it soon.

        Now I’m already at my room. Writing this post and after this planning to go to bed. Really damn sleepy right now. Need to wake up early to ‘bersukan’.

P/S: The moon is shining bright although it was not a full moon but still make me happy. :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Conversation In The Middle Of Night

In the middle of night
It’s only the sound from the fan and my keyboard that I can hear
Sitting here and thinking
Talking and chatting
Mess with my own mind
Nothing to do but just keep pouring some words
Try to find the words that can describe what I feel inside
And yet I don’t know what it truly is
What I feel inside?
How to express it?
I whisper to my mind

“Hello, are you still working there?”

“Stop all this nonsense you idiot! Don’t try to create an issue here!”

Mind answer to my whisper

“She is just can’t help herself to think. It’s worse in here. I’m tired to handle her emotion”

Heart suddenly interrupts the conversation

 “……………… I don’t know what’s happening actually.”

I answer after keep silent for a while

“You think too much! It’s nothing! You just try to have something to think. And it’s just simple things that you can’t decide.”

Mind tries to convince me

“All these feelings that you don’t really understand was just unsecure feeling. Keep worrying, wondering, and asking. The same question over and over again. Mind! Please help this girl to make up her decision. As long as she still don’t know what she want, both of us will continue suffers because of this idiot!”

Heart added

“Okay, what should I do now then?”

I asked both of them

“Switch off the laptop and go to bed! You have more important things to do when you wake up in the morning!”

Heart and Mind answer in the same time

“Okay, I guess this is really time to sleep”

I just answer them and smiled
Now I understand
Good night world
Please let the sun shine on me when I wake up


Friday, December 10, 2010

USM Engineering Campus

    Hello~ I'm here! Well, I already been here since 5th of December 2010 but going back to Main Campus at 7th of December 2010 because the real event will start at 10th of December 2010 (today la!). Just reach here about an hour ago. The other day that I came, I didn't bring along my laptop and it was really boring! So decided to bring it along. Tomorrow the registration of participant will start at afternoon. So I can sleep until that time (yipee!). At 3pm, we will be having a Gotong-Royong at Kg Sungai Kechil. *Excited mode! I want to feel the kampung breeze!* Now? What am I doing? Just feel want to write something here. 2 Days at island was really fun. *Penang Island la~~* Watch movie, watch TV, Sleep, Eat, buy 2 new comic, .............*LOL, berfaedah sangat la aktiviti saya..:p* But I wouldn't say it was totally useless activities because its makes me happy. And yes, everything happen for a reason or maybe reasons? But sometimes I feel that I think too much? Or worried too much? *okay, okay, don't start 'menyemak' your head Esther!* Let it be. Whatever happen next are for me to face it. Whatever happen next are still mysteries. So let the mysteries happen, and enjoy the moment. *inspired konon*XD

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Pergi Untuk Kembali by Ello

Walaupun langit pada malam itu 
Bermandikan cahaya bintang 
Bulan pun bersinar betapa indahnya 
Namun menambah kepedihan 

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu 
Menyusuri liku hidupku 
Janganlah kau bimbang 
Dan janganlah kau ragu 
Berikanlah senyuman padaku 

Selamat tinggal kasih 
Sampai kita juga lagi 
Aku pergi takkan lama 

Hanya sekejab saja 
Ku akan kembali lagi 
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti 

*not sure if this is sad or happy song...but the music and lyric quite meaningful...make me want to smile and shed tears in the same time...:')*

Friday, December 3, 2010

Hanyut by Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Hidup tanpa dirimu

*Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Rhythm Of Love by Plain White T's

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says "Boy quit foolin' around"

I told her "I love the view from up here
The warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung

She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me
She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry

And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love

*Fun song! The title matched the music and lyric!:D*

First Friday of December 2010

I'm quite confused now....
What did I do last night?
I know that I always forgot about my dreams, things I need to do, and sometimes what I'd done few days before..
But after that I can remember bit of it...
I can't even recalled what I'd done last night...
But I sleep quite well last night...