Another Crap of Mine II

" yesterday shadow"

my tears still pouring as I look to you pictures..

my heart still throbbing every time you across my mind..

I still remember the day you left..

I just can't stop thinking the way you say it...

your words still resonance in my mind...

I want to look you in ur eyes....

and search for the truth...

is this really happening?

Am I dreaming?

Or did I misheard?

I just don't know..

its seems like yesterday you left...

seems like yesterday when you say those words to me...

and until today..

I still feel that it was dream...

I still can't accept the reality...

I lock myself in my world...

the reality really strike me...

I just want to stay in my world...

I can't believe what happening...

It's been a long time since you have left..

I just can't resist myself to know...

are you happy now?

did i ever crossed your mind?

have you missed the moment we have been through together?

do you ever regret for knowing me?

do you hate me?

how do you now?

questions keep popping out in my head...

but I just can't say it to you...

If we ever meet again...

How I must react?What should I say?

I just no idea...

what would we be now??

if I ask you stay...

Where would be now??

if I ask you to take me with you...

I just don't know...

Will you answer me if i ever ask you those questions?

I can't stop thinking of you..

you are the light of my life...

the flavors of my feeling...

the dream of my night...

without you...

i feel my life surrounded my darkness...

i lost the sense of judging my own feeling...

every night is sleepless night for me...

why did you take with you all those?

why did you leave me with all this sorrows?

why....

*this post are not related to anyone that still alive or already dead...words are life expression tools...as imagination is mind flavor...the way you think about something will be different from others as you imagining...playing with imagination...express it with words...*

Another Crap of Mine

"faith,feeling and you...."

your smile haunted my sleep...

your laughter still mingle around my ear-lobe..

the way you look at me...

make my heart calm...

who are you that make me me feel this way...

why are you going farther as i try to grasp you...

and when the time of my sorrows...

you come to me and wipe my tears...

i am alive when you are around and feel lost when you are not at my sight...

why...why...and why...

is it my feeling are being strange or you have been special to me....

one day...

you suddenly go....

without a sign...

without a farewell...

the hand that always take me..

the words that soothes me...

the smile that shine my life...

now had disappeared....

my worlds suddenly become dime and dull...

i had fallen to deep black hole...

no sound...no sign...no light...no path...

just loneliness..darkness...and emptiness...

since the moment you left...

i've been wandering in this space...

waiting, wondering, and missing...

i keep myself in this place...

i can left but i stay on the name of faith...

faith is the reason for me to be here...

faith is the reason why i still wait...

faith is the reason for me to keep believing that you will drag me out from here..

as long as my faith is inside my heart...

i will always be here...

maybe the day will come when you take me out from here...

or maybe someday i will open the door to find the light...

maybe........

*this post are not related to anyone that still alive or already dead...words are life expression tools...as imagination is mind flavor...the way you think about something will be different from others as you imagining...playing with imagination...express it with words...*

Relax A Bit ~~

Hello~~

so tired typing my 2006 life just now...

i had postponed it before this due to my examination..

today paper was Operation Management..

and tomorrow will be Business Communication...

Principle of Marketing will be on 5th May..

still got time to revise it later...XD

this few days i've been busy on examination..(*finger crossed*)

*19 April - Macroeconomic *blank*

*22 April - Business Law *cannot breathe*

*23 April - Introduction To Psychology *Faint*

*24 April - Academic English *relieve a bit*

*26 April - Operation Management *face turn blue*

during study week...

i have the opportunities to study...

BUT..

my mood are not into study...

its hard for me to study if the mood was not there...

almost all the paper was studied on 1 day before the exam..

hurm...

if continuing like this...

i doubt that i can finish my remaining 3 years in USM...

to graduate in minimum result can be achieved..

but that would waste my time !

I dont want  to graduate only with the minimum result..

(not saying that i will achieve 4 flat...mudaranaii..)

at least the result must be above normal pass...XD

after this...

i want to read manga at One Manga - Cherry Juice

then i want to take a nap...

see you soon~~~XD

April Event 2006 ( after 21April 2006~~)

*26 April 2006 -

^dapat surat amaran ke-2..tahniah kepada Esther Yong kerana mendapat surat amaran ke-2 disebabkan masalah ketidakhadiran ke sekolah....(matai~~baru april..suda amaran ke-2)..wakkwkawkaw...

*28 April 2006 -

^Perkhemahan Kadet Polis di Malangang, Kiulu...huhuhu...banyak tul kenangan~~

23 April 2006

this is the last 'catatan' for April 2006...catatan ini ditulis pada jam 8.45pm, hari ahad and cuaca dia baru lepas hujan...XD...hari ni baru saya tulis kejadian after sy tdur on 21April 2006...tu malam..my best friend sama BF dia p rumah sy...memang sangat SHOCK...yala...mana la ada org mau cari sy sampai rumah ni...mcm VIP la kunun kajap...awkawkawkkwa...and then drg bawa sy kluar...rupa2nya BF yg bz2 mau jumpa..patutla sampai kena cari di rumah...yalah..kan time ni manada fon...huhuhuhu...and yang paling BEST... saya dapat hp baru masa ini..yeah~~~Nokia2300 ja pun tp memangla sangat best drpd xda HP...huhuh...(ni fon ni masih 'hidup' lg...sy bg mum sy pakai...kekekke...tp xda rupa suda la...hancurrrr keja 'drg')...and then~~ HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY for us...my number fon~~(014-*******)..kekekke...sebelum ni ada number celcom juga..tapi baru kena kasi hilang oleh adik sy last year...gedemet dia...wakwkawkkwa...

21 April 2006

4years ago...during this date...around 3.52pm...it was friday...condition sudah bertambah ok...hati kurang2 suda sakit sebab HP hilang...tapi rindu juga la sama tu fon... kebetulan hari ni (4tahun dulu ), St John , sekolah menengah sy dulu la, last day minggu bahasa... ni minggu bahasa start yang dr 19April 2006...(previously xtercatat, sebab main point still pasal HP)...time ni sy tension with my dad...xkena bagi belanja sekolah bha...apa nda panas...(actually bukan xkena bagi, tp xcukup...yalah...tau la kalau spisis lambat kenyang ni...XD)...lepas ja siap tulis ni catatan...trus sy tdur....(4tahun dulu la...)

Take a break...

This is what I do when 'blank @ blur' in the middle of the night...

I have the choice to write it down on a piece of paper..

But I choose to write in my blog..

(Lestari bah kunu)

I don't want to mention anything about my exams..

(So Unbelievable Cam Kili2...@S.U.C.K.hahahha.)

And about "4 years ago life story" will be postponed for a moment...

I just want to focus on my study now..

(slap me on the face please...hahahahhaha)

Hurm...

Blank...Blur...Unknown state of Mind~~

(muncul tiba2 lagu 'Empire State of Mind'hahaahha...)

My mind working hard...

I feel like I want to express myself...

Want to forget about life mess..

I really hate it when it comes to my 'unknown' state..

(kin panas ni...ndada bha)

I think this might be the Psychology impact...

(kabur2 pandangan tgk slide show...T.T)

The more I look to the notes...

(emotion + stress + personality + motivation =  Esther Sangat Pening Membaca)

The farther my mind 'merayau'..

Really out of focus...

But cannot stop now...

There are still SUPER MANY need to revise..

At least for tonight (pagi suda ni geng,belum terang jak la~~)

I MUST read the slide show...

Time really chasing me right now...

I need to run faster...

Need more stamina + determination + focus + eustress

(100plus please..kekekke)

*dengan pandangan blur melihat screen laptop*

Hari ini...

OMG...

mataii...

selera makan semakin mengganas...

tadi p Queensbay mall..

semua pun mau makan...

now I'm in trauma...

tadi membantai Hazelnut Coffee Blended d Coffee Bean...

makan KFC...

Beli Pop-corn di sana panggung...

ada hati lek mau makan sushi...

mau makan takoyaki..

mau makan itu..

mau makan ini...

adededededd...

sy taw la sy ni kuat makan...

tapi kenapa macam mau mengganas pula selera sy ni...

luckily ada c kim sama c joe alert..

kalau nda..

ada la balik USM jalan kaki ni kali...

malar shopping makanan...wkakawkkawkwa...

adehh~~

sorry la dad...

sa taw ko sakit kepala mengirim duit untuk menampung semangat makan sy yg berkobar2 ni...

tp how to do kan??

memang kuat makan pun dari dulu...XD

19 April 2006

hahhaha....buduh ooo saya 4years ago...masa hilang HP...sempat lek pikir pasal EX..parahh...kekekek...lupa kali aaa kijap pasal ketiadaan HP..baru sy perasan..tym ni saya active tul main myspace...kekekke...banyak tul sy tulis pasal sy teingat EX sy tu musim..tp nda jua dapat ingat apa sebenarnya sy pikir that time...parah betul ko ni pink..sempat lagi....XD

From Shakinna XD

To Siti Shakinna Chu @ Lot

thanks for this award...

hehehehe...

1. Link and thank the person (s) who awarded you.

2. State 7 things about yourself.
3. Pass this to 15 blogger

7 things about Esther @ Pink- Pink

1. I never cut my hair short (above shoulder), since I am 5years old.. My late grandma wont allow it.. Now I am afraid I will look awkward if I cut my hair short.

2. My mum is muslim and my dad is christian.. but I am not officially tied to any religious yet..(but I go to church sometimes)

3. I enjoy writing blog...writing is a way for me to express my feelings and thoughts..people will get bored to hear my 'Blah3',so better I write it out..

4. I like reading.. Malay novels and Comics are my favorites.. i buy comics and only borrow novels from library..my collection of comics from the moment I enter USM until now is 40 books. 

5. My MOUTH is my biggest weapon.. I can't stand of losing in talking.. I will argue the things that dissatisfy me.. Once I start talking, its hard for me to stop..

6. I hate horror movie... Really HATE! 

7. Its hard for me to get along well with Chinese... I can easily be friendly with all other races or ethnics but not Chinese(maybe my awful mandarin language constraint me to get along with them?)..hahahahah

P/S: In the beginning don't know how to or what to write.. now feeling like still a lot of things to write...kekeke...

Okay the next receiver of this awards are:

1.Mimie Nicole

2.Esteranza

3.Meredith Madani

4.Jacqualyn  

5.Hambrozainy

6.Raeff Azrae

7.Saidina

8.Natasha

9.Daniel (DeeDee)

10.Muhaini

11.Lally Liong

Bye Bye Macroeconomics

Feel like want to cry right now...

How come the question was so hard for me to answer??

Adessss..

Chest pain + stomach ache...

Really nice feeling!!

anyway...

at least I didn't ignore the paper without trying to answer right??

Now just forget about that already..

still have exam to do...

this is only the the starting point...

focus on the next paper...

focus!!!!

to treat my broken heart..

i want to take a nap!!!

hahahaha

Before going to exam~~

hahahha...

still got time posing before going to exam..

good luck to all my friends...

don't too stress...

calm is the one of important weapon in exam...

Go! Go! Go!

XD

*ATW108 @ Macroeconomic *

1st day of exam!

and 1st paper is today!

it on 9am...

and i just woke up at 3am...

afraid to sleep again..

huhuhuh...

cannot said prepared 100% for this paper...

but I think I will be okay (only OKAY)..

after that critical paper will attack me!!

this Wednesday is Business Law @ ATW103..

this paper is moreeee scary and the worst part is...

I still HAVE NOT revise it...

@.@

** EXAM **

Finally its here...

Welcome EXAM..

Take a break others thing...

Its not like you gonna die if you ignore other things in this critical moment..

Hopefully I can focus to my exam this time...

I have to regain my calmness...

My emotions keep lingering and distracting me...

Emotionally distracted..

I will do my best to regain 'myself' ..

THINK...FOCUS...MAINTAIN..XD

18 April 2006

masa ni baru saya sedar yang HP sy tu too many hp numbers...kekeke...mimang huru hara...menyesal sebab xsalin all the contacts.. banyak important date lagi yg tersave sana..macam birthday org....then masa ni yang paling teruk...sy lost contact dengan my long lost friend..(baru tercontact balik lepas lost contact, trus lost contact balik sampai la sekarang)...susa hati lagi sebab xdapat contact BF that time,malas kena cuci telinga n bla3..huhuh...memang la ada alternatif lain (public phone) tapi macamna juga kalau xkluar rumah??malar xp skool..befikir sy balik..apa la sy buat dirumah..tdur..makan..tgk tv...then p padang waktu petang (bukannya ada urusan...rutin harian jak) tgk org men bola and melepak dengan my best friend...betul2 wasting time...tapi masa tu bukan xtefikir..tp xtindakan susulan..kali la...nda berapa ingat lagi apa sebenarnya corak pemikiran sy that time..

Putus Lagi??

Alalalala...

Punya la teruk!!

Adakah putus lagi??

Tadi pagi masa tukar baju...

Putus rantai~~

Ni rantai yang saya dapat masa dinner 'Malam Kita Bha Ni'

The conclusion is??

Kalau setakat rantai nipis macam tu..

Memang saya tidak sesuai...

Bikin panas betul~~

Rasa lain2 ni leher 'kosong'

Nanti la masa cuti cari 'subtitute' dia..

 Biarpun rasa tidak senang hati..

Saya mau buat bodoh jak ni..

Malas mau fikir banyak2...

(tp banyak sudah scenery xbagus dalam kepala ni)

STOP

Back to reality...

Back to business...

Have missions to do..

17 April 2006

hurm..according to the date, it was MONDAY... masa ni masi lagi sakit hati tahap gaban... siapa xsakit hati kan kalau hp hilang??? saya ada buat catatan sikit2 pasal kadet polis...hahaha...(ingat2 balik, time kadet polis la time yang paling tidak disukai)...Thinking about kadet polis, bikin sakit kepala...sebab apa?? I'm not used to DISCIPLINE thingy.. hehehe.. tapi itu abaikan jak la... yang paling menyakitkan hati pasal hp juga la... HP Hilang = Social world constrained...kekekke...

16 April 2006

Ini la hari sandi~~~ HP HILANG!!! Bukan juga hp mahal..buli hilang juga... my 1st hp colour screen.. Nokia 6610... Hp ni kena bagi sebab score exam...isk..sadis tul... and paling 'kick' lagi...bukan setakat hp...duit pun hilang...ni kali la... masa ni nda taw kenapa sy rasa sy kena buli berabis ni... huhuhuh... malang datang bertimpa-timpa... time ni memang sakit hati sangat2...huhuhu...

Panasnya~~~

Punya panas ni cuaca...

adesss....

berpeluh2 dengan parah ni....

tau2 baru jak mandi...

mcm mau berendam la pula...

huhuhuhu...

tadi pg lunch...

barula...

beli itu...beli ini...

melayang Rm20....

ni la malas mau turun pg lunch ni...

menghabis2kan duit yg memang suda parak...

adehhh~~~

sama kalau sudah lunch ni punyala ngantukkkk~~~

sandi~~T.T

13 April 2006

nah..akhirnya ada juga cerita senang hati sikit...hari ni masa 4tahun lalu...sy lepak d uma Gabriella@Gabe (one of my bestie) dengan c Dolores@Bibi....kami ceta2 d uma c Gabe...well...kalau ko ckp kami berkumpul memang keja kami bergosip jak tuh...jan harap mau ceta pasal pelajaran...wkawkkawkawk...miss that time...kita masih lagi 1kelas and always there for each other..still remember our equation?? POSITIVE + NEGATIVE = SENSITIVE...kekekke...and then pada hari ni juga la..my bestfren baru balik dr Keningau...XD..sangat2 happy kalau dia balik...miss her!!XOXOXO....tp ada juga la yg merosakkan mood...adaka sy kena introduce dengan 1 org pastu dia dengan rilexnya suruh sy jd GF dia..time tu sy mau kasi picah mata dia pun ada...betul2 terasa mau cekik kawan sy tu musim juga..ko ingat sy ni apa??isk....Kereta c Pet time ni rosak...accident...kekkekke...pada hari yang sama juga...saya sempat lagi susah hati pasal lama xpergi training + kerja rumah yg belum dibuat...dalam masa 24jam..macam2 bha terjadi dalam hidup...adeedededede...surprise...

STUPID!! AWAKE!!

Why am I being so sensitive just now??

Clearly they are joking and normally I would not care and join the conversation..

But TODAY..

I suddenly PISSED OFF..

What happened to me??

Calm down you stupid girl!!!

Why are you so angry anyway???

THINK..THINK..THINK..

Take a deep breathe...

Filling my head with loud songs...

Calm down Esther...

Really feel like want to cry...

I never feel something like this before...

Silly!!Stupid!!

My chest really in pain...

I wondering when is the last time I feel this way and really cannot retrieve...

Maybe I should cry to calm myself...

Please stay away from me awhile...

I might hurt people right now...

I don't want to hurt others and feeling regret later..

I feel like want to scream out loud...

But it would be completely irrational to do that...

Thank god...I am still not into that extent...

Sorry to Addrean, DeeDee, Meredith, Takiuddin, and Sly..

Maybe I had spread my anger to all of you just now..

I also don't understand what happen just now..

It pop out suddenly...

Really IDIOT ME!!!!!

The story of My Silver Necklace (II)

HuHuHuHUhUh..

Made a decision after thinking for awhile...

To my silver necklace...

Rest quietly in the box...

Don't crowd my mind for now...

I need to be at ease...

I will settle with you after I settle out all my exam...

Now I'm 'silverless'...

No ring, no necklace..

left only ear rings and toe ring...

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...

First, I stop wearing the ring...

Now the necklace broken...

After this??

wakwkwkwakkkawkawk...

*due to tension, I don't know what else to write..need to sleep to forgot this world for a while*

Esther...Die...

HuHuHuHuUUHUhUHu...

what am I doing??

I am confused...

what is the meaning of all this??

more complicated and confusing...

maybe I just can't keep my mouth shut!

my friend already remind me..

don't be too honest..

and that is my BIGGEST weaknesses...

Too honest ( sometimes ) at a time I shouldn't be..

although this have hurt me from I know the meaning of 'hurt'

I just can't ignore it..

its my nature I think so??

why I must say it??

actually its not honest...

Its like saying something that I shouldn't say..

or maybe saying things that I MUST NOT say..

Am I stupid or dumb??

why I should be like this??

why??

go away from me...

I might hurt you before I realize it was too late to keep quiet..

I hate this part of me...

you are mad Esther..

you know it hurt you...

but still you done it...

again and again..

when would this end anyway?

12 April 2006

my best friend said that she like my BF..punya la sy terkejut...mau pengsan pun ada...then my best friend said that my EX-EX BF still love me..lagila...combo2 hot news... this time tiba2 rasa macam alone.. I have no one there..rasa macam kena kasi 'pulau'...kenapa?? sebab sy pun lupa suda... feeling mmg complicated kan??

The story of My Silver Necklace

This was the 4th time the necklace broke..

I hate this feeling..

The uncomfortable feelings, the frightened feeling, the hurt feeling..

Why it broke again??

What is the meaning of this sign...

Without the necklace around my neck,

i feel empty and insecure..

1st time it was broke it was last year with tragic events..

2nd time is not longer after the first broke and I found the broken piece...

3rd time is the day after the 2nd broke and the piece already gone...

Now the 4th time...

All the broke episode have its own story..

What will happen this time...

I care so much for the necklace because I've been wearing since I was Form 4..

Suddenly I remembered...

4years ago..at the same date, I received silver bracelet...

and the 4year after that (that is Today!)

my silver necklace broken for the 4th time!

The necklace always give me courage,spirit, and secure feeling..

Is this a sign for me to stop fixing the broken necklace?

And find something new that can give me courage, spirit and secure feeling..

or this is a reminder for me?

I have neglected the things that I supposed to do in my life??

Thinking about it make me confuse..

I hate this confusing feelings..

Please don't distract me..

I am entering my study week and this feeling will spoil my determination to study!

What should I do!?

1.Fix the Silver Necklace...

2.Keep the Silver Necklace....

3.Gave it back to the owner(as if the owner will concern..)

4.Throw away the Silver Necklace (impossible!)

ZzZzZzZZzzzzzZZZZzZzZzZZz

What should I do????!!!!

I think its better for me to take a nap..

My feeling this time really mixed..

Hope I can leave this 'crowd' in my heart somewhere in my dream wonderland..

Heart..stop feeling 'something will happen'

Mind...stop thinking 'this is a sign'

Esther, calm down and rise again!

11 April 2006

4years ago...during this date..my current BF gave me a silver bracelet.. it was so surprising since we only started couple 1week before...But I truly appreciated his gift and still keep it...I was touched by his efforts.. because i'm not treating him very well.. i didn't care much about him.. since i think that our beginning is because of mistake! he always patients with me.. talking about him.. he is my OLDEST BF... our age gap is 10years.. I also didn't understand how could that be??and my EX before that was my YOUNGEST BF..our age gap is 1year...(until now got trauma for young BF)...huhu..i think this already enough for today..XD

Muka Head+Monkey Beach

huhuhuh...

punya siok hiking....

mantap!

wakkawkwakawk...

biarpun penat...

tapi happy la juga...

today,

Meredith, Lena, Intan, Gwen, Ikin, Amani, Eiyna,

Mik, Raky, Tim, Syakrawi, Hafzan, Taki, Jazey, Johari and Bahar..

kami pergi Muka Head and Monkey beach di Taman Negara PP..

kebetulan la pula ada aktiviti sana...

huhuhuh...

masa hiking td..teingat pula masa Kem Bina Insan di KML..

huhuhuh...

masa pulang kami naik speedboat..

rindu ni lama xnaik...

kekekkeke...

pastu before semua balik,

kami singgah makan d Gee Tomyam....

Quiz yg sy rush buat semalam mmg worth it...

today biarpun penat...

satisfaction achieved!

relaxation gained!

experience added!

XD

yeah~~

akhirnya siap juga kuiz!

huhuhu...

memang rushing la berabis...

ni semua pasal siang nanti drg(geng2 PERSIS) bawa hiking...

actually can choose untuk tidak ikut...

tapi sy mau~~~~

huhuhuhu...

tapi itu baru kuiz yang sepatutnya due 10april (11.50pm)

wawakwkwakkwa..

memang kedapatan la keja last minute bha..

sandi jua!

sekarang jam 4 da ni...

bagus sy tdur dulu...

besok mau bangun awal lagi...

mau pegi hiking..

tapi apa pun belum packing...

ada ka aturan begitu???

*gulik2 ketawa*

10 April 2006

huhuh...hari ini pada 4tahun yang lalu...saya sakit teruk...muntah2..cirit birit..mmg teruk la..(kebetulan skrg pun sakit juga la)...time tu saya assume sy sakit sebab sy kasi break Ex-BF sy...assumption ini dibuat bukan kerana suka2...tapi ada history dia...asal sy kasi break BF sy,sy akan sakit teruk...(bunyi dia macam banyak kali kan??)..2x jak la..=P..tapi sy ingat lagi...mmg sandi la tu musim..isk...that day sy balik rumah sy (grandma house) sy xpegi tempat drg c lina...

Quizzes

penat membaca...

huhuhu..

harap-harap boleh kasi complete semua kuiz by today...

tinggal 4quizzes to go...

marketing kuiz simple la mau paham...

tu OM kuiz yang kuyakk...

tidak paham~~~

yang paling spoil lg skrg ni...

xselesa bha mau buat keja...

bising dibawah+ sakit hidung..

bangang betul!

sekarang target kasi siap dulu ni marketing kuiz...

ni malam baru buat OM kuiz....

tinggal 1 lagi ni marketing kuiz...

pasni mau take medicine + take a nap (2in1)

hahhahha...

gambatte!

kasi siap marketing dulu...

go!go!go!

My Thursday

Today is the last class for O.M. and Marketing...

already get the decision 2 result...

can proceed to decision 3 already...

but unluckily...

I LOST THE SOFTWARE!!!

now where I should find it??

jahanam...wkawkawkakwkaw...

now my nose still clogged...

hopefully will recover soon...

now I'm at my room...

chatting with Lally Liong @ Liong Fui Ching...

i will get killed if she say this post...

sorry la biao jie...want to play2 bha...XD

my quizzes 'lag' because we 'gossiping'...

huhuhu....

Baru Balik~~~

baru balik dari meeting PERSIS..

pergi makan lagi kan...

apa xlewat balik..

huhuuh...

takut trus dengar kerja mau dibuat...

xtaw dapat angkat ka tidak...

huhuhu...

tapi paling menyakitkan hati ni skrg...

SAKIT HIDUNG...

adedededee....

take away this pain so I can back to myself 100%...

adeiii~~

Isk...Isk...

Adessss...

now suffering...

sakit hidung!

bantingal tul oooooo....

napa la time2 mo dekat exam ni juga la 'dia' meragam...

skrg tambah lagi sakit perut...

cilakak!

betul2 mau buat sy menderita ni...

ingatkan lepas habis makro test boleh rilek2..

rupa2nya ada lagi yang lebih HEBAT...

ada 10 online quizzes perlu dijawab and due pada 10APRIL...

sempat ka mau baca habis tu??

average pun mesti buat at least 3-4 kuiz per day...

napa la datang dugaan MANTAP2 time mo exam ni...

isk3...sakit hati~sakit hidung~sakit kepala~nda lama sakit jiwa ni...

7 April 2006

huhuhuh...ni hari dalam sejarah lagi sandi~~ kejam betul bh sy ni.. hari ni in 4years ago... saya break up my current BF that time... and in the same time couple with another guy.. now i'm thinking.. what is in my head that time...mistakes really datang combo2..masa ni saya risau berabis da ni...bukan pasal apa...sudah 2 days xpegi skola...hahahha... xhabis lagi rasa bersalah sama EX..skrg double regret..huhuhu...punya la... tapi ni baru sikit lagi ni... kekejaman sebenar belum terserlah..I guess that time...love is only game to play huh??

*what the point i write this?
*reminder to me: "kalau marah or sakit hati, jangan buat sesuatu dengan melulu.. nanti menambah masalah sendiri ja in the future..."
*I am scared for the things that I am capable to do... I had done it!@.@

Pening

huhuhu..

punya pening...

Test makro..

hangkang!!!!

skrg dalam bilik da ni...

kin sakit hidung ja lama d library tadi...

nasib baik ada juga la yang bikin senang2 ati...

b.com xla teruk sangat...XD

adesss....

berpinar2 pandangan ni...T.T

Pecah

Nothing interesting actually,

tapi terkejut bha tadi...

tiba2 jak pecah...

1minggu jak tahan..

saya rasa nda sedap hati trus...

adaka~~~

for 1 week,

its not getting smaller...

this also strange...

never seen this condition..

just now when i wake up taking nap..

wondering why it doesn't burst yet...

suddenly burst...

huhuhuhu...

bubye Belon~~~

4 April 2006

hurm...ringkasan cerita...gaduh dengan BF (skrg Ex la)..gaduh pasal msg...dia terbaca msg org send kc sy...time ni sy masi teingat my ex..saya rasa bersalah tul sama dia...org ckp klu kita kc kecewa org...lagi sandi drpd org kasi kecewa kita...sebab tu perasaan bersalah..masa ni sy try yakinkan diri sy yang saya patut appreciate apa yg saya ada...kekekke...dats ol...

*sandi juga kalau ingat balik...punyala complicated ni musim ni...macam2 dalam pikiran..bukan sibuk pikir pasal blajar ka apa...sibuk pasal Bf la pla..ni la ni...

Bored~~

Boring woer...

hari ni tiada catatan dalam diari...

saya pun nda brapa ingat suda what happen 4years ago (winkwink)

hahahaha...

sekarang dalam bilik ni...

boring tul ooo...

c zakiah pun blum msg lagi...

ada la sy buat2 bodoh ni bsuk ni...

hahahhah...

oh makroekonomi...

kenapa la ko ada midterm next week~~

ada lagi kuiz due tu next week...

and paling mantap dia...

blum start baca pun for the quiz...

wakakakka...

ni kali la...

final approaching...

lazy attaching...

headache will soon attacking...

insomnia will haunting...

tapi yang paling penting...

jangan pening-pening...

releks kau gink...

wakakakkakakkak...

1 April 2006

*hak cipta terpelihara*

*sebarang bentuk penyalinan atau peniruan adalah dilarang sama sekali*

1April 2006 Events:

1.April Fool!
2.Masko Franklin <21tahun>
3.Petronella Sinin <16tahun>
3.Konsert Amuk & Mus (Dewan Tuaran)


P/S: tiada sy tulis apapa ni...ini jak ni saya punya catatan...