20 July, 21 July, 27 July, 28 July 2006

20 July 2006 - Spot check! Hand phone" kidnapped"...+.+

21 July 2006 - Heart broken...No hand phone means no SMS...XD

27 July 2006 - my friend named Wasaly birthday...(didn't saw him for a long time...hopefully his dream to become a successful architect comes true... )

28 July 2006 - one week I didn't write anything in my diary...maybe because I attend my class for the whole week...my record!hahahaha...even the teachers and my classmates feel so curious bout it..:p

Finance Chapter 4 tutorial..

OMG~~ I'm STUCK at the 1st question @ the easiest question....+.+"

How to complete then???

Take it easy..

This chapter will become longgggg chapter for me....

Sunday life...

Today was Sunday...

and off course tomorrow will be Monday...

*class start*

Today do nothing productive...

only watching Midori No Hibi...

Su goi na~~~

went to meeting with the dancers...

decided to do the performance instead of go to the Round Island program...

starting from tomorrow....

my day will turn to hell....

LKM,LSP,ATW262,ATW252....

die,die,and die...

works,assignments,tutorials...

and not forgotten, activities.....

i hope i can survive until this weekend...

this weekend i will definitely will loss my voice at least for a day!

wait for me...

cover your ears...

i want to scream and all out...XDD

Today was Saturday

Feel really exhausted right now....

Today started at 6am...

feel really thirsty...

so wake up and drink water then continue sleep...

wake up again at 9am...

received some SMS,replied it then sleep again...

wake up for the third times...

at 11am...

play sudoku...went out to Queensbay Mall with friend and reach there around 1pm...

watched 'Despicable Me' and went back to USM around 5pm...

reached USM with uncomfortable feelings~~

went out to celebrate friend birthday at Plaza Ivory...

then after that went to meeting...

now im at my room...

so exhausted...

so uncomfortable...

i'm both physically and mentally tired and in pain now...

don't know what to do now....

want to finish some works and sleep EARLY...

*inhale,exhale,*

AssignmentSSSSS

Now the class already begin smoothly...

for the lectures...

some of the tutorial also will start next week...

and the others will be on the following week...

and off course...

the assignments start to build up...

hopefully it will not getting worse....

I will try to reduce the amount of my works every time I had mood to do it...

(still depending on mood..=.=")

when the tutorials start on week 4 *according to the academic calendar*

my Tuesday will become totally hell!

non stop class from 11am until 6pm...

continuous 7hour of lectures and tutorials...

and 'luckily',all the class are far from each other...

thats mean i have to rush to other class when one class is done...

Tuesday will become my exercise day for the whole week...

and on Thursday and Friday...

I only have to attend 1class...

3-5pm....

totally sleep+nap day...

only on Thursday have to attend the Ko-K class...

huhuhuhuhuh....

I rather have 1 busy day than a week with balance class...

its not good actually....

but I dont like for being busy for the whole week...

because I enjoy so much sleeping...

back then in my secondary school...

I was labeled as the 'Sleeping Queen'...

and I just cant control my sleep...

I LOVE SLEEP SO MUCH....

hahahhaha...

urgh~~just realized....

now already 3am...

guess I have to log out now...

complete 1 sudoku question and go to sleep...

*mata a bit berat2 already*

Finally~~

Last night I was trying so hard to open my blog account...

and just now I can open it...

Don't know wrong actually...

but never mind...

now I can update my blog already...

today BM class...

I was so blur~~~

i try to improve my english all the time...

and ignored my BM....

now the consequences show~~

my grammar understanding really sucks...

=.="

New look~~

I just updated my blog template...

I have been working on this for 3 hours...

I try to copy and paste the code...

but the loading was so slow...*I think it doesn't load at all*

now..

done with my blog...

back to reality life....

need to do my LKM400*subject code for Bahasa Melayu*

really tension when the lecturer asked us to find the grammar mistake in news article...

my grammar also 'lintang pukang'...

how to correct other grammar mistake...

huh~~

enough for a moment...

if I get bored later...

will write something again in this blog...

jaa~~

*wink*

look at the skies...

count the stars above...

lying helplessly at the hill...

feel the breeze that softly tendering...

without the sound the metropolitan city..

just the crickets sound that fill your ears...

when you reach your hand to the skies...

trying to touch the stars and pick it...

a line of smile shown at your face...

but then...

tears suddenly drop at your cheek..

all the sad feeling crowd your heart...

you take a deep breathe and slowly exhaled it...

the sad air that filing your chest gone away as the air out...

now its empty...

loneliness trapped...

and you still lying there...

Dilemma

I already known that this would be difficult...

I have considered to end it before it become more complicated...

I have think the positive and negative view...

because of the simple 'one reason'....

I take the risk and holding on...

I keep myself believing everything will be just fine...

the 'one reason'...

I might not need it...

But I want it...

I face it and here I am...

It started smoothly...

although its not my rhythms..

I still can compromise and follow the step in front of me..

But then...

all the steps that I followed become mixed with the steps that I used to walk...

Now the moments comes....

where conflicts and problems started to arise...

where the differences and understanding started to clash...

where small matters become huge and annoying..

when the words spoken become poisonous..

when the acts done become all wrong...

I have said to myself before...

 I want to make a new start in my life...

I wouldn't let myself to regret for stopping halfway..

But don't push my patient beyond its limit...

because beyond my limits..

my words will become more annoying....

my acts will build hatred...

even though that there are so many reason to give it up...

I will hold on to the 'one reason' that started all of this...

5 July, 7 July, 9 July, 12 July ,13 July, 15July ,16July and 17 July 2006

5 July 2006 - writing all about my life that related to man...hahahha

7 July 2006 - the last day of 3 practical teachers in our school..=)

9 July 2006 - last night went to Razz Ma Tazz...but it turned out to be so boring...hurm...

13 July 2006 - 2days absent....totally lazy...hahhaha...went to my friend house..

15 July 2006 - escape from Razz Ma Tazz....went somewhere~~

16 July 2006 - went to Penampang to a wedding ceremony and watched The Pirates of the Caribbean 2,"The Dead Man Chest"...

17 July 2006 - once again...absent...huhuh...

Random Pictures Part 2

Hehehehe...now comes the part 2....more pictures to be post...XD...tadaa~~~

with Marisa at nexus beach...

at Nexus Resort Karambunai restroom...hahahhaa

like this picture a lot...XD

Girls day out...o yeah~

Marisa captured this while she is driving...Bravo~~

kerang bakar and kelapa muda time~~

feel so funny with this pose...hahahha

fitting room pose...hahahhaha....

1st day at home...yeah~~

yeah...Raymie is posing with my webcam...hhahhaha

*ngeeee*

Random Pictures

feel so bored right now...i'm at Likas now...still have things to pack but i can do it tonight...so i decided to upload some random pictures during my time at Sabah...XDDD

Does this hair style match with me???*tondemonai!*

at Shirly house..The next day she went to UTeM...

with Shirly at 1B..=)

with Bertha at 1B also...XD

with my BB...also at 1B..XD

Dolores, Gabriella and me at Gabe's house...XD

with raymie...my youngest brother...XD

with Ridawan..XD

with my cousin, Lally, at her house...XD

kiss from raymie...XDDD

tension playing Sudoku...so snap picture with my bear...XD

Kim, Marisa and me at Simpang Mengayau...XD

I'm with my cousin lally and her friend Jenifer at KK box,we sing for 3hour there..hahahha

I'm with Marisa and Shirly at Nexus Beach..*from Nexus Lagoon with friends..*

Kim look really tension here....her tamagotchi was reseted by me accidentally..*sorry*

huhuhuhu...there are still many picture to post...but i will publish it later...all the picture was chosen randomly....and all the event are not happening in orderly...

Pink + Raymie birthday ! ( Pictures)

Before this I have said that I will upload the picture of my brother and my birthday celebration...XD

the words written,"Happy b'day Raymie 2th Pink-Pink 20th"

from left-Tony, Raymie, Pink and Rahim...*ridwan is not here*

my brothers with my mom..=)

heheheh... he cant wait any longer...=)

Tony with Raymie...XD

Raymie with Rahim...XD

Pink with Tony...XD

Last 14 hour...

Sayonara to Sabah...

in 14hour more i will leave you...

back to USM...*dizzy*

back to school...

back to books...

back to classes...

back to Saujana...

back to students life...

ima iku yo ~~

Saturday Night

I'm at home right now...

Alone and listening to musics inside my laptop...

Today..

I only when to my late grandma graveyard...

with my younger brother, Tony...

Then we went to pick some mangoes-teen @ Manggis...

after that we went home...

not much to write now...

but feel so bored right now...

*sigh*

this few days...

many things circled in my mind...

my emotion also become very sensitive...

I become confused with my own decisions..

I think about what had happened over and over again...

when I went to bed...

I can't help it...

many sad feeling crowding my heart...

I try to be alone...

and calm myself like I always did...

But it just doesn't effective as before...

I hate when my mind thinking without my approval...

It makes me feel regret the things that I already done and can't reverse...

But I always think a lot to view things positively and make feel relieved..

I try to rationalize everything that happened to ease my feelings..

now?

I'm stuck with my thinking,feelings and life...

*plus I'm hungry...(wink)*

Welcome July 2010

It's July!

Its been 7 month I have gone through 2010...

Its was the month for the starting of new semester...

My life as a student will be graduated from 1st year student to 2nd year student..

still I have 3more years to go...

July...

the month that remind us that its been more than 1/2 year we have gone through in a year...

BUT...

the starting of this month quite wavy for me..

my feeling can become sensitive in certain time...

and it happened TODAY....

actually nothing serious happened...

just that my feeling really distracted now....

I need some space,so I switched off my phone...

I just need to calm down myself...

people are hate to be alone...

I hate it too...

but what I hate the most is when I 'like' to feel alone...

and I HATE for being complicated...

I HATE when I think too much...

I HATE when I talk too much....

But I LOVE what I LOVE...

*complicated mode*

1 July 2006

1 July 2006 - Razz Ma Tazz...(IMY)hahhahha