Feeling Burst..

"You can always have the love and affection together, but when it come to reality, you have to be apart to walk your own way.." 

These words almost make me cried during class this morning.. 
But I already cried inside my heart..
And now I'm here and crying without having any tears pours..
I couldn't hold myself anymore..
Yeah, I'm shattering and falling..
How could I tell you how much I missed you?
How could I tell you how important are you?
....
I can't!
Those words only scream beneath my heart..
And haunted my days and night..
I know stupidity that dragged me into this melancholy..
I've fallen to the senseless deep dark black hole..
....
Just call me drama queen..
Or call me melancholy freak..
Maybe a fantasy mad..
Reveal me...
Read me through my poker face..
....
Maybe I will continue being conflicted here..
Just running in a circle..
Asking myself the same question over and over again..
I'm not a good liar..
Neither an honest girl that you ever seen..
I'm trying to move on..
Maybe I can reflect what I had done before..
Not to regret it..
But learn from it..
....
I'm writing to let you know that I'm thinking of you..
I'm writing to let you know that I miss you so much..
I'm writing to let you know....
That I'm still here..
I want badly to tell you that............
I can't write another words of it...
My heart will burst....
My feeling absolutely will blow..
....
I wouldn't say good bye if you walk away..
I wouldn't say I don't care if you walk away..
If I can't stop you from walking away..
Then I have to let my heart torn watching you walk away..
....
I'll have to admit..
You already took my heart away..


-pinkpink-
4.01am
012911


P/S: Just a song to listen before going to bed...


Kurnia by Mizz Nina & Noh Hujan


Dengarkan kataku dulu
Tindakanmu itu melulu
Jangan biarkan hati
Dikunci oleh rasa benci
Resah yang tiada henti
Bila kau melangkah pergi
Apakah yang harus ku lakukan
‘Tuk merubah hatimu


Chorus
Kurnia bagaikan khayalan
Takkan ku lepas walaupun apa yang mendatang
Kurnia bagaikan khayalan
Ku takkan lepas walau hanya khayalan


Senyumanmu igauanku
Tiada yang setandingmu
Suara yang bermain
Memanggil-manggil namaku
Resah yang tiada henti
Bila kau melangkah pergi
Apakah yang harus ku lakukan
Untuk merubah hatimu


Ulang Chorus


Pintaku cuma jangan pergi
Ku tak bisa berasingan jauh oh darimu
Bilakah onar ini akan pergi
Onar ini akan pergi
Buat selamalam biar kita berdua disinari
Oh mentari oh mentari


Ulang Chorus


*many of the lyrics posted at the internet write 'Dengarkan lagu dulu, Tinggalkanmu itu menunggu...' No matter how many time I listen to this song, it was 'Dengarkan kataku dulu, Tindakanmu itu melulu'... Then the part of 'Buat selamalam biar........' also confusing.!@#$%^& So I decided to stick to these instead!

I'd Lie In Front of The Train For ya?

Sound so familiar eh?
Well, I just adjust a bit of the words...


I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of the train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya


Now got it?
Well, the title for the post today is a story of a guy in his 20's has recorded a video of him lying at a train railway tracks for FUN. He posted the less than 1minute video to YouTube. These are the comments of the viewers.


A spokesman said: "It doesn't bear thinking about what would have happened if the turbulence created had swept the man's coat up into the underside of the train.

"Not only that but think about the effect on the train driver who believes he has just killed somebody.

"Nobody who has any regard for their own safety or the feelings of others should attempt a stunt like this.

"It is stupidity in the extreme."






One wrote: "Dude i will never do that in my life because 1 slightest movement could get you ripped to pieces."

Another added: "How bored, dumb and suicidal do you have to be to try something like this?

"If you're that dumb you shouldn't be allowed outside, and if you want to die that much seek help." 




Well, to think about it. Why a guy want to do this for fun? It was so terrifying to think that a guy would do to this extent to have fun. Most of the viewers labeled the guy as CRAZY and IDIOT. I think the same too. But maybe for Jason Mraz, its tolerable because he said it one of his song.


There's no shame on being crazy
Depending on how you take these.....
(I'm just kidding..:p)


For Bruno Mars, now you can search for this guy to put in on your Grenade Official video clip. XD


The full story can be read at: Man Lies Under Train.....For Kicks

Will You Do The Same?

"Money is not everything, but without money we can't do anything"

But does money can bring us happiness?

Yes, money can!

Shopping, eat, vacations, etc all need money...

Most people nowadays complained that they don't have enough money...

What is the enough amount then?

Its depend on the people spending habit, lifestyle, etc.

If you found a money more than RM100,000.00, will you return it?

Maybe some of you will return it and some of you maybe would not..

Its the matter of ethics..

BUT...

Yang Huang Mu, 67 from Taiwan returned NT1.1Mil(RM115,659) which she had picked in the street to the owner without hesitation.

"I have not seen so much money before. If I take it, I would feel guilty for the rest of my life.

Okay, its quite an amount of money. I would feel guilty too. I wouldn't dare to keep that much money if I found it. But! She also refused to take 3%(RM3469.77) of the amount of money that she entitled to have!  (@.@) She only agreed to accept RM315 ang pow. That is less than 0.3% of the total amount. (eh, suddenly my maths become better...hahahaha)

As for the accountant that left the money accidentally, you are lucky that she is the one that found that money. If other people? I didn't dare to think about it........

The full news can be read at: Honest Trash Collector Returns RM115,659

Transition-Adapting

I'm in a new transition of life...

Something new...

I'm still learning about it...

Try to adapt it...

Life never been too easy for all of us...

P/S: heart, please hold on...

Pretty Girl Rock by Keri Hilson

Uh uh uh aahh uh uh
I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what’s your name

My name is Keri, I’m so very
Fly oh my is a little bit scary
Boys wanna marry looking at my deri
And you can stare but if you touch then ima beri

Pretty as a picture
Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya

I ain’t gotta talk about it baby you can see it
But if you want ill be happy to repeat it

My name is Keri, I’m so very
Fly oh my is a little bit scary
Boys wanna marry looking at my deri
And you can stare but if you touch it ima beri

Pretty as a picture Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I’m cuter than the girl that is with ya
I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty
If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl’s a 10 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful.
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. 
My walk my talk the way I dress 
It’s not my fault so please don’t trip
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful

Aye, now do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock 
Do the pretty girl rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock 
Do the pretty girl rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock

Now were you at, 
If your looking for me you can catch me
Cameras flashing, daddies turned his head as soon as I passed him 
Girls think I’m conceded cause I think I’m attractive
Don’t worry about what I think why don’t you ask him

Owoaah!
Get yourself together don’t hate(don't do it), 
jealous is the ugliest trait(ohh, don't do it)
I can talk about it cause I know that I’m pretty
If you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in, 
No question that this girl’s a 10 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. 
My walk my talk the way I dress 
It’s not my fault so please don’t trip


Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful 
Doing the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock 
Do the pretty girl rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock

Get along with your pretty girl rock rock rock
Still show me your pretty girl rock rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock 
Sing it with me now

All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl’s a 10 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful. 
My walk my talk the way I dress 
It’s not my fault so please don’t trip
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful 
Don’t hate me cause I’m beautiful [x2]

Owoahaha!


*Love this song! even thought I'm not that pretty...hahaha... the music was very niceee...coincidentally my friend named Dorsy like it too...kekeke...full of confidence song...Search and listen to this new track from Keri Hilson...XD*

With Me by Sum41

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go 


*first heard of this son when browsing through my friend Facebook.. Enjoy this track so much.. Recently heard this song in one of the Gossip Girl Season 1.. (When my room mate 'introduce' me to GG...) This part is when Blair and Chuck kissing in a limo.. So sweet and ....*censored* hahahaha....

State Of Me

Have you ever felt falling to darkness?
Keep falling in the dark without shade of light?
You reach out your hands try to grab anything that you can..
You scream out all your voice to ask for help..
Nothing...
Nothing to grab on and no one helping you...
As you keep on falling...
You only can shed your tears...
The pictures of people you love playing inside your mind...
And you wonder," Will you guys search for me if I'm gone? Love you all..."
Reminisce the things that you did in the past..
Regretting for the things that you didn't manage to do..
This is not reality..
This is not drama too...
Let the feeling rhyme with the words that flowing..
Flow and go...
Leave me...


-pinkpink-
12.40pm
012422

Puteri Cinta Review

Saya baru habis membaca novel ini pagi tadi. Memang best! Kamu rasa saya jiwang? Tidak kisah la, sebab saya minat membaca novel dari dulu lagi. Dan minat ini hanya lah kepada novel dan komik. Buku akademik? *ehem...* hahahahaha...

Sinopsis novel:

Semusim telah berlalu, Kristal terus berlari meninggalkan kenangan cinta yang tidak kesampaian. Walaupun kasihnya terhadap Farish sedalam lautan, dia tahu hanya perpisahan jalan terbaik buat mereka. Duka lara ini tidak mudah untuk diungkapkan, saat senyum dan tangis menyatu. Namun, Kristal tidak mahu berpaling ke belakang lagi. Persahabatan yang dihulur Melur mengisi separuh kesepian Kristal. Mereka sering berkongsi cerita dan mencurah rasa. Persamaan jiwa wanita keduanya saling memahami. Biarpun sering dipandang sinis oleh segelintir teman dan keluarga, Kristal dan Melur bahagia dengan takdir yang tertulis buat mereka. Malah, Kristal percaya bahawa jodoh pertemuan itu adalah rahsia Yang Maha Pencipta. Hanya DIA yang mengerti betapa berat usikan dan sindiran yang diterima lantaran usia yang semakin ditelan masa. Menemukan keindahan warna-warna cinta sememangnya satu perjalanan yang jauh dan panjang. Semakin jauh Kristal berlari, semakin dekat rindu itu datang. Sehinggalah pada suatu pertemuan yang tidak diduga, cinta Farish kembali menggugah jiwanya.

Dipetik dari: Sinopsis Novel Puteri Cinta

Sinopsis saya:

Novel ini mengisahkan tentang Kristal yang merupakan seorang wanita berusia 30-an dan masih belum berkahwin. Perkenalan dengan Melur banyak mempengaruhi hidup Kristal. Melalui Melur, Kristal mengenali Farish Ahmad, seorang CEO muda yang sangat menyusahkan hidup Kristal kerana sebuah peristiwa yang telah berlaku. Farish Ahmad tertarik pada Kristal kerana Kristal tidak seperti wanita lain yang dikenalinya. Kristal tidak menyenangi Farish Ahmad kerana nama itu hampir sama seperti nama kekasih lama Kristal, Farish Daniel, dan juga tindakan-tindakan beliau yang dia rasakan amat melampau dan suka berperangai gila. Disebabkan suatu peristiwa lalu antara Farish Daniel dan Kristal menyebabkan Kristal tidak suka berdamping dengan keluarga orang kenamaan. Perhubungan Kristal dan Melur sangat rapat serta sukar digambarkan. Kristal telah tersangkut dalam permasalahan keluarga Melur kerana Kristal menolong Melur untuk berjumpa dengan kekasihnya, Noel, yang telah mempunyai isteri. Oleh kerana Melur berasal dari keluarga Diraja, perhubungan mereka ditentang oleh keluarga Melur. Selepas konflik tersebut, Kristal dikejutkan lagi dengan kehadiran isteri Ashman, rakan sekerja Kristal, menuduhnya mempunyai hubungan sulit dengan Ashman. Kristal menafikannya kerana dia tidak tahu bahawa Ashman memang mempunyai suatu perasaan yang berlainan terhadap Kristal. Kristal melarikan diri dan telah bertemu dengan kekasih lamanya, Farish Daniel. Pertemuan semula mengugat perasaan Kristal yang masih mencintai Farish Daniel. Namun insiden penculikkan Kristal telah meletakkan dirinya dalam keadaan yang trauma. Dalam masa yang sama, Farish Daniel dan Farish Ahmad telah bersemuka. Mereka telah mencapai kata sepakat. Dengan pertolongan Tengku Iskandar, kekanda Melur, Kristal mempunyai harapan untuk bertemu semula dengan Melur. Namun, kematian Farish Ahmad di tanah suci telah membantutkan pertemuan itu dan Melur telah meninggal dunia disebabkan penyakit Hodgkin's lymphoma. Mengalami kejutan yang mendadak menyebabkan sekali lagi Kristal mengalami tamparan hebat. Setelah 3tahun ke Australia untuk merawat trauma, Kristal kembali ke Malaysia untuk menjelaskan 'hutang' kepada Farish Ahmad. Akhirnya, Farish Ahmad bersama-sama dengan Fatimah Zahrah, sepupu Kristal dan Kristal masih belum memberi respon terhadap Tengku Iskandar.

Pendapat saya:

Novel ini mempunyai plot-plot dan jalan cerita yang menarik. Kejutan demi kejutan berlaku dan menggambarkan keperitan hidup yang melanda Kristal. Persahabatan luhur di antara Kristal dan Melur amat menyentuh kalbu dan sukar untuk ditafsirkan. Cinta Farish Daniel dan Kristal yang masih kuat walaupun telah lebih 10tahun berpisah juga menggambarkan cinta yang sangat utuh. Cinta Farish Ahmad kepada Melur tidak kesampaian namun Farish Ahmad setia kepada perasaannya terhadap Melur sehingga Melur berkahwin dengan Noel. Nilai persahabatan, cinta dan keluarga jelas digambarkan dalam novel ini. Konflik dalam keluarga juga dipaparkan. Gaya penulisan yang bersahaja, diselitkan dengan sedikit humor melalui watak Farish Ahmad yang nakal dan berperangai gila. Secara keseluruhan, novel ini akan memberikan kejutan demi kejutan dalam penceritaannya. 

(Entri ini ditulis dalam bahasa Melayu kerana novel ini novel Melayu. )

Love Bite Case!

Woman Paralyzed by Love Bite!

Love bites can be dangerous. Pic from www.sixthseal.com

Okay! Don't laugh! This really happen! A 44 years old New Zealander went to the hospital after she is losing movement in her left arm while watching television. The doctor found out that she had suffered a mild stroke for unknown reason. The doctor found a major bruise on her neck near a major artery. The woman explained to the doctor that was a love bite she received few days ago. The explanation for the paralyze:

Teddy Wu, of the Middlemore Hospital in Auckland, New Zealand, said: "Because it was a love bite there would be a lot of suction.

"Because of the physical trauma it had made a bit of bruising inside the vessel.

"There was a clot in the artery underneath where the hickey was."

Wu said the clot dislodged and caused a minor stroke that led to the loss of movement.

He added: "We looked around the medical literature and that example of having a love bite causing something like that hasn't been described before."

The medic said the woman recovered after being treated with an anti-coagulant.

Full news report: Woman Paralysed by Love Bite

*After read the news, I was thinking. "Oh, this can happen!" Well, its kind of funny but it do happen. Thats mean, all the girls and boy, ladies and gentlemen, women and men out there. Please be alert! Love bite can e very dangerous. Please don't try to be a vampire(exception to Edward Cullen). ^_^*

These few days life..

*project for the day...:p*

*After sticking all the sticker*

*Boo~~~Lat~~hahahah*

*^.^*

*Bought these books yesterday at Foyer DK...*

*Haven't start read those books, still in their wrapping...hahahah*

*Taddaaaaaa~~~Cute isn't it?*

*hahaha...it just my table new look! *

*the remaining of keyboard word sticker destination...ahakz...*

*I also bought textbooks~ Expensive! And that give me reason to read those books!hahahah*

What else?

MONDAY:
= Busy from afternoon to evening...huh!Only 1 class but doing a LOT of thing in one day...Then attended Karate Class and discussion at night...Tired! *but sleep around 4am!hahaaha*

TUESDAY:
= TITAS class... presentation had postponed to 1MARCH! and I've been working on that like hell!  First time attend tutorial for consumer behavior, communication for social development and entrepreneurship...:p..At night got Consumer Behavior class! Whole day of not so energetic...DAMN SLEEPY...but at night? Still sleep around 3-4am..

WEDNESDAY:
= Going to hospital Pulau Pinang.. Eyes appointment...Then sleep inside bus, almost miss the station...hahaha...lesson of the day," Don't eat ICE-CREAM during way back to USM/ in the bus during afternoon..(You will feel sleepy!)"...Blaming the Ice-cream..hahahha...Went to BJ and bought a new legging..:p..Sleep? oh this one earlier...6am..hahahah...XD

THURSDAY:
= Thaipusam Day! sleep whole day..(until afternoon)..then working on the laptop keyboard...Go to training...Eat...And in front of the laptop until now~


So basically thats how my life working on these few days...
Nothing interesting bout it...
But what make it special to me?
Because I'm still ALIVE today..(nonsense!bla3....hahahah)
Actually a lot of interesting and meaningful things happened to me these few days..
But I want to keep it to myself...
There are things that should left unspoken huh?
after that?hurm......................
So I guess this is my good night post!

*I can't resist myself to think that the distance is getting far and farther everyday...Something is missing in my life..Should I let this left unspoken too? WEE(What Ever Esther)~ What is happening anyway? Would you tell me WHY? Heart.. Please hold on..Don't drop and shatter..I can't afford to walk these days and pick up the pieces of you..*

Satisfied!

Its almost 6am!
After this I want to go to sleep!

Cuddling and 'golek-golek' at my bed!

I feel satisfied because I have done my part..

And yes..

Even though its quite last minute..

I DIDN'T take it easy..

I DON'T simply write nonsense..

and its done!

Tried to do these few days but doesn't get the information...

Last minute?

I finally found what I want and just started writing it few hours ago..

Now I just need a LONG and QUALITY sleep to replenish this few days sleepless night!

Don't call me if there is nothing important!

and PLEASE..

call or text me after 12pm only!

Okay..

I wanna go to sleep now...

I can feel my body shaking and I'm drowning....

Dizzy....Sleepy...Tired...HUNGRY!

情非得已 ( qing fei de yi) by Harlem Yu

 难以忘记初次见你

nányǐ wàngjì chū cì jiàn nǐ 
It's hard to forget the first time I saw you


一双迷人的眼睛
 yī shuāng mírén de yǎnjīng
that fascinating pair of eyes

在我脑海里
zài wǒ nǎo hǎilǐ 
你的身影
 nǐ de shēnyǐng
挥散不去
huī sǎn bù qù
In my mind your image couldn't get it out of my head

握你的双手感觉你的温柔

wò nǐ de shuāngshǒu gǎnjué nǐ de wēnróu
When I hold your hands and feel your tenderness

真的有点透不过气
zhēnde yǒudiǎn tòubùguò qì
It's really a bit too much for me to handle


你的天真
　 nǐ de tiānzhēn
我想珍惜 
wǒ xiǎng zhēnxī

Your innocence is something I want to treasure

看到你受委屈
kàndào nǐ shòu wěiqū 
我会伤心
 wǒ huì shāngxīn

if you're wronged by anyone I will grieve

只怕我自己会爱上你
zhǐ pà wǒ zìjǐ huì àishàng nǐ
I'm just afraid I will fall in love with you


不敢让自己靠的太近
bùgǎn ràng zìjǐ kào de tài jìn

Dare not let myself come too close to you


怕我没什么能够给你

pà wǒ méishénme nénggòu gěi nǐ 
I fear not having something to offer you


爱你也需要很大的勇气
ài nǐ yě xūyào hěn dà de yǒngqì

Loving you may require a lot of courage too

只怕我自己会爱上你
zhǐ pà wǒ zìjǐ huì àishàng nǐ
I'm just afraid I will fall in love with you


也许有天会情不自禁
yěxǔ yǒu tiān huì qíng bù zì jīn

Maybe one day I won't control it anymore


想念只让自己苦了自己

xiǎngniàn zhǐ ràng zìjǐ kǔ le zìjǐ 
Thinking just makes one suffer


爱上你是我情非得已

 àishàng nǐ shì wǒ qíng fēi děi yǐ
I just can't help falling in love with you


爱上你是我情非得已

àishàng nǐ shì wǒ qíng fēi děi yǐ
I just can't help falling in love with you

什么原因
shénme yuányīn
我竟然又会遇见你
 wǒ jìngrán yòu huì yùjiàn nǐ

What’s the reason why I suddenly met you again

我真的真的不愿意
wǒ zhēnde zhēnde bùyuànyì 
I really really don’t want to


就这样陷入爱的陷阱
 jiù zhèyàngde xiànrù ài de xiànjǐng

fall into this love trap...

P/S: I miss this song! I remember that when I first listen to this song, I ask my friend to write the lyric in Mandarin and I memorize all the lyric! Just a song before going to sleep.. The chorus part always make me want to shed my tears...T.T


Listen the song here:http://www.downloads.nl/results/mp3/1/qing+fei+de+yi+harlem+yu