Not done, but enough. August moment.

            Hey! Hey! Hey! It’s me again! Okay, today I will not post about my ‘jiwa kacau’ state anymore.  It was really tiring and down. I want to share about my activities this august. A week more to go for the end of this month, fasting season will end and Hari Raya Aidilfitri or Eid is around the corner! (Feel so excited, because I really look forward to celebrate it with so-called family of me!) Okay, let’s go through my activities then.

1. Daniel @ Yung Yung birthday celebration

Yung Yung with his cousin, Aaron

He is one of my closest friend son. His mother is like a sister to me. So, he is considered as my nephew. It was small celebration but warm because the ‘family’ scent is there.

2. Girl’s day out.

Pose before going out from the room. <3

A day out with my girls! Marisa(BB), Carlisiah(Kim), and Shirly. Bertha got church activity and she can’t join us. Another girl that I have not met before, Melinda also can’t present that day(looking forward to meet and know her better). It’s not complete but still happening day. Why it’s happening? Well, we sing for 4hours at KK Box, Karamunsing! Hahahaha. After that we have to rush go back because Shirly have to go back for her tutor session. We made it on time. It also tiring day, but satisfied because I want to karaoke so bad! (Even though my voice is not that good, who cares anyway? As long as I’m satisfied! :p)

3. Mini gathering with matriculation friends

This is the crowd that cause havoc at KFC. :P

This one is initiated by Esteranza a.k.a. Joe. The funny thing is when he created the event in the first place and forgot to make it as a private event. So he has to delete the event but the agenda is still going on! Breaking fast together at Tuaran coolest hangout place, KFC! Hahahaha. Not many had come but it still havoc! In other words, our crowd not applicable for the phrase of ‘the more, the merrier’ because if more people had come, I think the KFC will break down! Just imagine that less than 10people gathered, plus 2 children, we concur that place! Well, we are just having fun though. (tak kesah la kan?Buat ‘derk’ jak~) Looking forward to another gathering with more people and activities. (surely will be more havoc!)

That's all for my activity so far this month. It's all about friend, friend and friend! Next week my bro (Tony) birthday, maybe we will celebrate it since I missed his birthday for 3years in a row! Maybe we will celebrate altogether for Ridwan (september), Rahim (may) me and Raymie (June). Studying abroad have to bear to miss out those occasion. Well, its not decided yet. I might have to discuss with my bro about this.

P/S: I'm excited and down when thinking about going back to Penang. Excited because can meet up with friends, going to seniors convocation, activities, etc. Down because it will be day of classes, assignments and not forgotten about friends too. Recently I found my very long lost friend (too dramatic la!5years only!)  Not so long but yeah, totally lost! hahahahaha. Almost forgot! One of my activity this month is cam-whoring with brothers! Well, its a request from my youngest brother (flash back how he begged to 'main gambar-gambar'. *faint*)  I will attach some of the photos.

Me, Raymie and Rahim

Me, Raymie and my Doraemon (Raymie declared that Doraemon is his property! =.=")

I like this picture! I even make it as my Facebook profile picture. :P

With Raymie and Tony.

Raymie with his 'nenen'. :p

Their about to sleep pose. (and Raymie get up after that)

This is expensive pose from Raymie since he is seldom want to kiss me! :3

See? Still in the mood to pose and his favorite brother (and mine too) already asleep.

The face of person that being begged to 'main gambar-gambar'.

Lots of Love from home.

            Hey, it’s me again! Feeling sucks now. Sometimes I just want to run away from all these matters, but how far I can run? No matter where I go, these matters will always haunt my mind. Tried to forget about it but when I see it, the anger inside me just rule my feeling. I know this already happen and nothing about it I can reverse. These clearly show that life is about decision. Every decision that we made will shape our paths. Every action that we take has its own consequences. Everyone has their own problems and anxiety. I hate to behave this way but this is the only way for me to lessen my heart burden. This anger I just can’t express it because it only brings greater problems. I can’t talk but I can write. I wish that I can talk these matters straight to the face of the people that may concern, but I know that is not the wise decision to do now. I have to manage and stabilize my life first. When the time comes, I might be able to do something about all these matters. Till we meet again my diary. J

stress over emotion

            Hello diary, it’s me again. Actually there is nothing that I want to write specifically. I just want to write here, to ease the uneasiness that had been attacking my nerves for these few days. To be precise, I think I started to act strange. Or I feel I’m acting and feeling strange. I feel awkward. … (Or maybe I am just being nonsense here? I just confused now)

            I just can’t put it exact in words. I can’t describe it. Maybe I’m just a jerk. Maybe I’m just a badass. Maybe I’m just another candidate of ‘Bukit Padang’. (Or maybe Tanjung Rambutan, WEE!)Getting stressed for any solid reason / any reasons are sure driving me nuts! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. I hate to feel this way! This is just too suck and too much!

            I need to get myself a wakeup call. This is just ridiculous! (a slap in a face maybe?) I don’t want to feel this way for the rest of this semester break! I’m getting crazy!!!

P/S: Emotion overflow due to high level of uneasiness that driving me nuts because I don’t even know the cause! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

When it comes to...

            Hello there! After facing a lot of ‘susah payah’, I manage to online. Well, the line is not so good here. I’ve been staying at home nearly a week and I guess I gained some ‘extra meat’ here. Hahahaha. The previous post, I guess I’m too lazy to continue about that. I only write what crossed my mind and when the thing passed, the intention to write will become undesirable.

            For the past few days, I only watched dramas, movies and anime. (Not including the inconsistent meals and sleeps I had) I’ve been sleeping in day time and eat supper almost every night. (*Sigh* I think this time will gain more weight…T.T) The person that called me ‘fat’ will be extraordinary happy teasing me. *sigh*

            Spend time with family totally was not the top list in my life. But when you have all members around it might be exciting. Few day before I’m quite not comfortable when I have to sleep with my 3brothers in a bed. (It is so uncomfortable and annoying when every person has their own habits that will irritate you while sleeping) But looking at their sleeping faces makes me smiles in the middle of the night. (Sounds creepy huh? Well, I usually sleep ‘quite early’ in the morning. So I have to cope with their sleeping habits) Last night was the ‘greatest’ night. I have to share the bed with 4brothers! All in a bed! (Luckily it was queen-sized bed, if single bed, surely there will be person that sleep on the floor!) Surrounded by brothers at home can be very tiring and yeah, annoying. Here and there shouting, crying, and the most intolerable are ‘menjawab’! You ask them nicely, and they answer with some annoying words and expression. (It’s in the family huh?) Try to argue with me? It’s their death wish. Luckily my first brother is more matured now. The rest are no difference, the secondary, the primary and the youngest. But yeah, it’s really hard to have this scenario, actually is no other place than this. I just come with a thought; this is another moment that I can reminisce when it comes to family topic.

P/S: I think this is enough. I feel that I want to sleep late tonight than the usual early morning. I’m really will age very fast in this way.

(I don’t know what’s that still holding me back, it is that I’m still not ready? Hurm, dealing with feelings sure are complicated.)