Percaya?

Entri pada kali ini adalah sekadar untuk menenangkan perasaan, meluahkan fikiran dan kata yang terpendam.

Kepercayaan. Sukar untuk kita percaya kepada seseorang namun untuk hilang kepercayaan dengan seseorang amat mudah. Mungkin dendam tidak tersemat namun cukup untuk membuatkan kita merasakan kita telah dikhianati.

      Jika kepercayaan yang kita letak itu tinggi, semakin perit luka yang kita rasai. Tapi itu tidak seharusnya dijadikan penghalang untuk kita mempercayai orang. Hidup ini perlu ada percaya. Tanpa percaya, kita akan hilang arah. Tempat kita meletak kepercayaan itu yang perlu diambil perhatian. Jika kepercayaan kepada ibu-bapa, mungkin perit itu hanya sementara. Kepercayaan kepada kawan atau teman biasa, mungkin kita tidak ambil kisah, kerana kepercayaan itu tidak tinggi. Kepercayaan terhadap teman lelaki/wanita akan membawa kepada kerenggangan dalam hubungan dan boleh membawa kepada perpisahan. Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan? Bergantung bagaimana kita menjaganya.

     Namun harus kita ketahui, bukan kesemua kepercayaan itu dikhianati dengan sengaja. Setiap orang mempunyai kepentingan mereka yang tersendiri. Penting bagi kamu, tapi bukan bagi mereka. Begitu juga sebaliknya. Kita dilahirkan berakal, gunakanlah akal itu untuk berfikir secara rasional. Kita dilahirkan mempunyai hati dan perasaan, gunakanlah hati dan perasaan untuk menilai perkara secara berpada-pada. Setiap perkara yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Pada pendapat saya, kita tidak boleh menjdai terlalu sensitif dan terlalu 'ignorance'. Biarlah seimbang.

     Sekian saja entri pada kali ini. Ringkas. Renungkan sejenak.

P/S: meluahkan perasaan dan menenangkan fikiran melalui menulis. pengalaman membentuk seseorang. tidak semestinya harus bercakap dengan orang lain mengenainya. kadangkala dengan menulis, kita mampu muhasabah diri.

Do I look that I care? Sadly, sometimes I do care with that look that doesn't care. Damn!

Just another update. :)

Hello! We meet again diary! Exam done! Yeah! My last paper was on 18^th of January. Integrated Marketing Communication, or in simple but incomplete meaning, advertising. Although the paper gap is quite wide, but I can say that I completely blank during the exam. Who will care anyway? Hahahaha. That evening I went to play volleyball and that’s hang out with my friend, Vun and Eddy at Khaleel till 2am.

 On 19^th January, nothing much I did in the daytime, sleep whole day! Went to meeting for University Ambassador program at 8.30pm. At 9.30pm, I went to Georgetown with Vun and Yati. Too bad for Vun, he got stopped by police and using some ‘discussion’, he got off. Luckily I didn’t get caught. If yes, say good bye to my P license that will end this march (finally, after waiting for 2years).  We meeting for I’m not sure how many hours but I reach my room at 5am and sleep at 5.30am.

20^th of January, SRN (Sekretariat Rukun Negara) USM went to Pulau Jerejak for Leadership Camp. It was so much fun doing adventurous activities! I really love it! Jungle trekking, suspension bridge, flying fox, wall climbing, swimming, water polo’ing, and lepaking (ok, the lepaking was made up) were awesome! And my manly side was shining so bright! Now, I’m a ‘bro’ among my friends! Well, I’m not the ‘gigirl’ type from the beginning. Hahahaha. Not forgotten to mention, my leg cramped 2 times when I swimming and water polo’ing! Luckily I could recover fast. It was very damn tiring day! Pictures time~ *the pictures are not in sequence order*

Me and Khai racing in wall climbing, I lead! (which is later become 2nd..hahahah)

Resting beside the pool

I'm with Munchee

Give cool pose ever body.hahahahha

Again with Munchee

I'm with Shahrul at the boat

Windy~

Vun with Khai. Peace! ^^V

Feeling cool~ hahahaha

Vun and Khai again. :)

Like family picture.. hahahhaha 

Vun is so excited, Khai and Shahrul embarrassed. hahahaha. 

Before start our jungle trekking

Camwhore~

Vun is exhausted, Munchee excited and Khai is happy kid~ hahahaha

Before going down to the jetty.

Morning ice breaking session

Before go through the suspension bridge

Yay! jumping at suspension bridge

I’m about to sleep when Munchee said she want to do surprise birthday for Eddy! I can’t say no, arghhhh. So I go along with the plan. Eddy was very surprised! Munchee call him and tell him that her arm got dislocated again. He got panicked and run to see her. I and Shahrul prepared to surprise him. He was very shocked, we got him this small 4 cake and light up 2 big candle and 2small candle, indicate 22^nd birthday. Sweet serendipity for him? Remind me of my 20^th birthday, I celebrated with my youngest 2years old brother. 2big candle for me, 2small candle for him lighted on the same cake for both of us. So sweet right? I sleep around 1.30am last night, after finished uploaded photos. *again photos every body~*

He look cute here with his small cake. :)

Munchee with her portion.

Shahrul with his portion. *he will strangle me for uploading this not macho photo..hahahha*

The birthday boy.

Me with my portion.

Only four of us, the rest are too exhausted to join us. :)

Today, 21^st of January, I’m sitting in a gift shop. I work here since last September but quit for a while because of assignments due and exam. Now, I’m back to work again. I love to work here because it is relaxing and I can learn something new. Not every day but it’s better than waking up every afternoon doing nothing in my room. Apart from that, I can earn some money plus the boss is so good to me. Her family also very nice, they treat me well. My work also very flexible and not supervised strictly, so I can work freely and comfortably. It’s not that they didn’t watch me, but I’m supervised with CCTV. Still I find it’s okay than they watching here in this shop personally. I just love the feeling in here. J

Smile ! ^^V

with the ribbon that I do and my sleepy face! >.<"

P/S: a bit late to complete since I’m about to sleep just now, so I try to do some ribbon, to avoid me from sleeping. Hahahahahah. I miss to tie ribbon and I learn to do it here!

Last picture! Bye! :)

hurm...

            Hai! Akhirnya telah menjalani kertas peperiksaan yang sangat menyeksakan diri! Hanya subjek ini yang membuatkan saya sangat panik dan gelisah! Bukan berniat mengatakan subjek yang lain adalah senang, tetapi subjek ini membuatkan saya rasa gemuruh. Perasaan itu sangat…(tidak dapat digambarkan dengan kata-kata) Disebabkan subjek ini, muka saya telah mengalami ‘kecederaan’ serius. :P

            Kelmarin (11/01/12), saya dan rakan-rakan bermain bola tampar dalam hujan! Perasaan itu sungguh mengujakan dan saya berasa amat gembira! Kami telah bermain dengan gembiranya dan basah kuyup! Hahahahaha…J

P/S: Suddenly feel so awkward writing in Bahasa. It’s not that I’m ashamed with that language. And I’m not saying that my English is good. But I feel more comfortable like this. I know my grammar is not that bad, it just lacking here and there. Hahahahahaha. Back to topic! I just dislike it when it sound too formal and I also don’t want to use the ‘bahasa pasar’. It makes me mumble more and talking nonsense (as if, I’m not nonsense when writing in English)! Okay! Time out! Bye bye! J

(update: 27January, video bermain volleyball dalam hujan..hahahaha)

Hello! :)

            Masih terasa lenguh tangan. 9am, kertas mengira. Perakaunan pengurusan. Soalan? Macam biasa tengok, dalam percubaan peperiksaan. Klu depan mata pun boleh binggung. Padan muka! Lain kali main game lagi, bermalas-malasan lagi, dan sakit hati lagi. Seterusnya, kertas jam 2.15pm. Ini lagi hebat! Baca daripada minggu lepas, jawab? Macam tidak pernah baca satu semester. Terasa macam masuk pertandingan menulis paling banyak. Dalam masa 3jam, hanya mampu tulis 10 muka surat. Penuh dengan idea yang sangat merapu. Ini faktor penyumbang utama kesakitan tangan. Disebabkan itu, mengambil keputusan untuk bermalasan pada malam ini. (memang tidak insaf? >.< )

            Peperiksaan yang seterusnya ialah pada hari rabu ini. Ini lagi mencabar daripada peperiksaan pada hari ini. Akan memastikan diri untuk mengulangkaji pada hari esok. Tidak ingin mengecewakan pensyarah yang amat baik. Imej dan reputasi harus dipupuk. Bukan bertujuan untuk mengampu, tetapi tidak salah untuk mempunyai hubungan yang baik dengan pensyarah. Mendengar setiap kata dan hujah pensyarah ini membuatkan saya kagum. Ini boleh dijadikan sebagai sumber inspirasi dan panduan dalam menjalani kehidupan seharian.

            Cukup dengan cerita tentang peperiksaan. Sekarang, saya ingin bercerita tentang rakan-rakan rapat yang belajar dalam pengkhususan yang sama. Anip, Fiza, dan Eira. Nama melayu? Ya, memang melayu pun. Kenapa? Itu tidak harus dipersoalkan. J  Terima kasih atas sokongan yang anda semua berikan, jumpa lagi semester depan. J (ayat formal kan? Hang jangan gelak sakan ye Anip.. :P ) Tidak dilupakan, Pah yang sentiasa ada. Ya, teman sebilik Anip pun gempak juga. :D Saya memang bertuah kerana dapat mengenali anda semua. Anda semua memang sangat baik.

P/S: dan sekian sampai disini warkah saya pada hari ini. Semoga kita berjumpa lagi wahai diari. 

Eira, Anip, Fiza dan saya.

nothing

     Hello~ It's been a week and a day of 2012! How's life? For me, it still good. And hopefully will be good for the whole year. The reason I'm writing today is just to take a short break from study (errr...). Just want to be nonsense here? hahahahaha. I'm currently on my exam month, first paper is on the 6th of January, Marketing Research. Even though there's a lot I can't answer, just write confidently and pose some devilish smile during exam is common for me. Stupid? I would say I'm silly. hahahahaha. One of my activity now is playing volleyball. It's from last year (to make it sound longer period of time). I'm not a good player and playing volleyball is only for the sake of having fun! XD Play hard, laugh harder. Continue with the exam, my next paper would be on 9th of January, Managerial Accounting and Corporate Communication. My aim for this semester is to get dean list (pergh...since first year!) and for the Managerial Accounting paper, I really want to score this paper. Not because of the lecturer is 'nice'(ehem..ehem..hahahahaha), but I seriously want to score this paper. The killer paper for this semester? In my opinion, would be the Communication Theory and Research. But, maybe I can do something to this paper. I like the lecturer so much! She is so kind and I like the way of her thinking. Okay, I think it's time. Need to back to my books, notes and etc.

P/S: Motive of the picture up there? I just want to show off my new henna. I love the drawing. Cool drawing~ 

New Year

I have gone through 21 new year in my life and celebrated new year in different way and emotion.. The 22 new year, I just cried. There's deep hole inside my heart. Really deep. I can't do anything beside cry. I have no gut to call anyone to wish "Happy New Year", I just want to be alone and cry. When do I lost the confidence to fake a smile and call people to wish them "happy New Year"? When do I started to not wishing people on new year? I lost in my own self in my own world right now. I don't know how to erase all these complications now. The more I tried, the more it hurt. And I'm not the one that known as the person who wait patiently. 2012, please be nice to me. Why am I like this? *sigh*


P/S : Why I have to be this emotional!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...