its the end

            Hey! It’s the end of October! Thinking to write in my diary tonight~ ♥ Last week, we have a week of holiday due to Deepavali~ Next week there will be another holiday. Mid semester break with Hari Raya Haji. Where I’d been all these time? Well, not going anywhere. My routine everyday is going to work and do assignments. For the whole week! No life huh? I got the feeling that next week will be the same. Huh! I think it will be worst! Since I have to submit 2 assignments and have 3 midterms when the mid semester break is over. Wuarghhhhh.. I shouldn’t write this entry now because I have midterm test tomorrow. But I’m just too bored. L warghhhhhhhhhhhhh…. *I want to scream! Again and again! L*

Your mind will be crowded with distractions today. Don't fight them.

P/S: I'm not sure what it means. But yeah, too many distractions now..:'(

little update

"Sometimes its easier to act like you don't care than to admit that it's killing you."

I always wanted to make people happy. Because if they happy, I'm happy too. But it turned to be I always let people down and I'm down too most of the time. I'm sucks at empathy? I'm sucks at being understanding friend? I'm a bad lover? I don't know. It seems like I really have problem with human relationship. Anyone volunteer to teach? : ) (confused and depressed)

Hello world! Its been awhile since I last updated this diary. Why? Well, being super busy and lazy because of tight schedule. *but still sleep at 3-4am everyday...(-.-")* I've worked about a month and I enjoy my work! Although I always depressed when I look at my schedule (assignments, midterms, etc), by working it helps me to feel relax. My friend said its a sign that I should work now, stop studying. *WHAT!??? I have like 2more years to finish my study!!* I tried to calm myself down by relax and tell myself to do my works whenever there is a free time or break time. It is so tiring! Seriously! I'm not stressed because of work, but I'm stressed over the assignments! Now I'm trying to be on the track by doing my work bit by bit. There is nothing gonna change if I keep thinking over and over it.

If emotion can be controlled like this.....

Yeah... I really-really wish...:'(

P/S: till we meet again diary.. :')

For Your Love

Just reached my room about 1/2 hour ago. From 'Malam Mesra' that organized by PERSIS to welcome the juniors and get along with them. But the intention for my post today not to talk about it. I would love to share lyric again! Hehehehehe. Never get tired of it huh?

Today (or should I say tonight? :P), I want to share a Spanish song. I first heard of this song when waiting for a movie at Perangin Mall. That day, the intention to watch movie was unplanned or just impulse intention. The movie that I watch that day was 'Raya Tak Jadi'. A funny movie that starred by Saiful Apek and Johan Raja Lawak. While waiting for the movie, this song was played. I managed to record the last verse of the song and when I come home that night, I spend like 2hours to search that song in YouTube. That was after trying to search that song in Google, but failed because I'm not really sure about Spanish words. :P

When I found that song, I almost cried! Sound so childish right? Well, my effort not wasted that day! After listen to the full song with the translated lyric, I'm so touched! It was hopeless romantic song! Awww~ The song title 'Para Tu Amor' or in English, 'For Your Love' by Juanes! The last song I listen from Juanes is 'La Camisa Negra', or Black Shirt.

 Para Tu Amor - Juanes

Para tu amor lo tengo todo
Desde mi sangre hasta la esencia de mi ser
Y para tu amor que es mi tesoro
Tengo mi vida toda entera a tus pies

Y tengo también un corazón que se muere por dar amor
Y que no conoce el fin, un corazón que late por vos

Para tu amor no hay despedidas
Para tu amor yo solo tengo eternidad
Y para tu amor que me ilumina
Tengo una luna, un arcoiris y un clavel

Y tengo también un corazón que se muere por dar amor
Y que no conoce el fin, un corazón que late por vos

Por eso yo te quiero tanto que no sé cómo explicar lo que siento
Yo te quiero porque tu dolor es mi dolor y no hay dudas
Yo te quiero con el alma y con el corazón te venero
Hoy y siempre gracias yo te doy a ti mi amor por existir

Para tu amor lo tengo todo
Lo tengo todo y lo que no tengo también
Lo conseguiré
Para tu amor que es mi tesoro
Tengo mi vida toda entera a tus pies

Y tengo también un corazón que se muere por dar amor
Y que no conoce el fin, un corazón que late por vos

Por eso yo te quiero tanto que no sé cómo explicar lo que siento
Yo te quiero porque tu dolor es mi dolor y no hay dudas
Yo te quiero con el alma y con el corazón te venero
Hoy y siempre gracias yo te doy a ti mi amor

For Your Love - Juanes

 For your love, i have everything
from my blood to the essense of my being
and for your love that is my treasure
i have my whole life at your feet

and i also have a heart that dies to give love
and a heart that doesn't know the end of beating for you

for your love there are no goodbyes
for your love i only have eternity
and for your love that illuminates me
i have a moon, a rainbow, and a carnation

i also have a heart that dies to give love
and a heart that doesn't know the end of beating for you

for that reason i love you so much and i don't know
how to explain what i feel
i love you because your pain is my pain, theres no doubt
i love you with soul and with heart, i worship you
today and always thank you, i give you my love for existance

for your love i have it all
i have it all and what i also don't have
i will achieve it
for your love that is my treasure
i have my whole life at your feet

and i also have a heart that dies to give love
and that doesn't know the end of beating for you

for that reason i love you so much and i don't know
how to explain what i feel
i love you because your pain is my pain, theres no doubt
i love you with soul and with heart, i worship you
today and always thank you, i give you my love for existence

P/S: I fell in love with this song and the romantic words lies in  it. I was melted by the romantic lyric! Aww~