On 24March

24oceans.. 24 skies..
24 failures.. 24 tries..
24finds me.. in 24th place...
with 24 drop outs..At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
24 hours ago

Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

And I'm not who I thought I was 24 hours ago

Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

24 reasons to admit that I'm wrong

With all my excuses still 24 strong

See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out

When You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh I am the second man

Oh, oh I am the second man now

Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these 24 voices

With 24 hearts

With all of my symphonies 

In 24 parts

But I want to be one today

Centered and true

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

You're raising the dead in me

Oh, oh I am the second man

Oh, oh I am the second man now

Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles, see the world change

Wrestled the angel, for more than a name

For more than a feeling

For more than a cause

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

And You're raising the dead in me

24 voices

With 24 hearts

With all of my symphonies 

In 24 parts.

I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out. 

  on 24th of march 2010, i post my 24th post.   it is the song by Switchfoot,'24'... 

this song was so touching.. hearing this song make my eye gland sweats...

i can hear the sound of my heart piercing,teared by this song... 

the feeling of loneliness hugging... 

feeling of suffocated.. 

the spaces between the fingers are empty, 

without fingers in between to comfort, 

without hand to hold on to.. 

the safe feeling is destroyed by the frightening, cold, and loneliness... 

falling to darkness..

searching  the light that going smaller and farther as u chase it.. 

waiting to see miracles, 

to change all this...  

no one searching...

 no one notice...

fading...losing...disappearing 

in wonderland of darkness and loneliness.. 

as the tears coming out,

yesterday scene pictured in mind and heart, 

today it still tagging along... 

wondering and hoping...

tomorrow will have a hand to hold on to,

 shoulder to lean head on to,

 hugs and comfort and warming the 

cold, frightened, lonely heart... 

they say sun will shines the next day, 

but will it shines through the darkness inside a heart?

i am still wondering....