early morning..

Hi! This is my first post using my new Blackberry! Its been 5days since I started using this Blackberry.. Overall? Still satisfied.. But! I got problem with Digi line in the beginning. They keep notifying me that my credit balance is insufficient. To think that I just reloaded my number, it really makes me feel annoyed! Luckily its only line problem.. If Digi really strangle my credit like that, I would never hesitate to terminate its BB plan..hahahahah..

Actually I just woke up,plan to sleep again later.. Yesterday, there are earthquake happens at Acheh.. Its really near to Penang. I didn't feel the 1st earthquake, and only feel the 2nd earthquake.. Its my first time feel the shake from an earthquake! What an experience!! I see things are moving! Its predicted that it will arrive in Penang at 9pm last night.. But I didn't get any update about it..hopefully everything will be ok..

Last night I attended the Infonite about a business plan,interesting.. maybe I can learn something from this..Looking forward to this idea..


*I feel somehow down.. it is understandable if my mom doesn't know anything about hppening here..But my dad? Maybe he still doesn't know about it..I will wait..(And 'he' actually called me last night asking about my condition here! At least he still concern..) I will wait for you dad..

A month without any update!

       wow~ hahahaha. I'm really busy, maybe not busy but has many things to do! I'm really exhausted, mentally and physically! My emotion are not stable and my patient also tested! :'( I'm about to be in mega depress but luckily I still got my entertainments and lots of other things to do. Almost every night of meetings, paperwork to submit, report to submit, event to handle and also people attitude to handle! The last time I update my blog was before the semester started and now its already the 5th week! What did I do this 5 week? Let me list out the sequence of events. (checking my planner)

20 Feb - Second semester started!

22 Feb - Meeting at Putrajaya

22 & 23 Feb - Site visit (Felda Gunung Besout 2, Sungkai, Perak)

25 Feb - Paris 1month! :) (Alice's daughter)

1Mar - Final check ICT Village

2 - 4 Mar - ICT Village (Felda Gunung Besout 2, Sungkai, Perak) (for this event, I was in-charge for the opening and closing! Thanks to En Jaya, that is something new for me and it turned to be good experience.)

5 Mar - Ko-K Karate started (finished my ko-k long time ago but because of the Secretary is away, I have to take over and as the Vice President have to meet the junior and recruit for new karate club members)

6 Mar - Start practice for MCB 2012 (ohhh, forgot to mention, I'm the one that responsible for the songs that we will use, the step and choreograph. Which is kind of challenging for me! wargh!not forgotten, every night training for 4-5 hours!)

6 Mar - Meeting for Karate Closed Tournament. (I really don't understand, we already started last semester and still last minute? Really don't understand, my first experience as the Head of Project. Quite disastrous.)

17 Mar - Fit and Feminine Volleyball (2nd place! hahahaha)

17 Mar - Final check for Karate Closed Tournament.

18 Mar - Karate Closed Tournament

19 Mar - ICT Village report due

20 Mar - Edit ICT Village report

21 Mar - Letter of Appointment for University Ambassador (Dewan Agung Tuanku Canselori, UiTM Shah Alam)

to summarize:

1. University Ambassador (UA)

2. Karate Club (Vice President & Head of Karate Closed Tournament)

3. PERSIS (Malam Citra Bayu 2012)

I know that out there there are people who are lot more busier than me and the example are really close to me. I know that person.Hahaha. But this is really something! I wish that this year I will become wiser and learn lot of new things. And yes, I experience lot of thing and hunger for some more! maybe later I will explain about the activities/events that I joined/involved. Tonight I just want to post the reasons why I didn't write in my blog for such a long time.

P/S: I'm happy that my result for last semester improved and was the best result during my university year! Although didn't get dean list, I'm still grateful for it. Now I'm aiming for dean list this semester! But based on my schedule, I'm afraid I will not have time for study! :'( I need to control myself more! Study! Study! Study!

emotionally disturbed

*picture credit to Google.com*

This thing has been in my mind for few days. This 'thing' stay in my mind because one of my friend said that I always give negative comments to him. Am I? Well, its not only him say that, there are few of my friends say that too. They say I always critics about anything. Especially idea that they gave. Am I too negative? I mean to people? I don't know. I always try to be positive even in the worst condition, I think I am. Maybe I say negative things to people. I don't know. I feel down because I made him feel that way. I always wanted and try to be supportive to my friends, at least that are my intention. I never want them feel negative about it. Maybe I said it in the wrong way? I am not down that he said I'm negative but I'm down because I made him feel so down. I'm not saying that I'm not hurt, I'm not saying I don't care because I do really care! Why I have to even bother about all this? Because I always did. 

P/S: it strike me so bad. I still remember how someone really special to me, my best friend said to me that I didn't understand her. I cried because of that. I cried because I feel and I think that I've been always by her side all the time. But she said I didn't understand her. I'm speechless. Usually I can talk back, at least to defend myself. But I really speechless that time. It dragged down all my confidence that time. I'm trying so hard cheer myself it really took me some time to accept it. But somehow, it still hurt now. Really hurt.

*picture credit to Google.com*

February. I went to KL twice this month. Tomorrow gonna pass through the highway again! This time destination : Nilai, Negeri Sembilan. Fighting!

Percaya?

Entri pada kali ini adalah sekadar untuk menenangkan perasaan, meluahkan fikiran dan kata yang terpendam.

Kepercayaan. Sukar untuk kita percaya kepada seseorang namun untuk hilang kepercayaan dengan seseorang amat mudah. Mungkin dendam tidak tersemat namun cukup untuk membuatkan kita merasakan kita telah dikhianati.

      Jika kepercayaan yang kita letak itu tinggi, semakin perit luka yang kita rasai. Tapi itu tidak seharusnya dijadikan penghalang untuk kita mempercayai orang. Hidup ini perlu ada percaya. Tanpa percaya, kita akan hilang arah. Tempat kita meletak kepercayaan itu yang perlu diambil perhatian. Jika kepercayaan kepada ibu-bapa, mungkin perit itu hanya sementara. Kepercayaan kepada kawan atau teman biasa, mungkin kita tidak ambil kisah, kerana kepercayaan itu tidak tinggi. Kepercayaan terhadap teman lelaki/wanita akan membawa kepada kerenggangan dalam hubungan dan boleh membawa kepada perpisahan. Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan? Bergantung bagaimana kita menjaganya.

     Namun harus kita ketahui, bukan kesemua kepercayaan itu dikhianati dengan sengaja. Setiap orang mempunyai kepentingan mereka yang tersendiri. Penting bagi kamu, tapi bukan bagi mereka. Begitu juga sebaliknya. Kita dilahirkan berakal, gunakanlah akal itu untuk berfikir secara rasional. Kita dilahirkan mempunyai hati dan perasaan, gunakanlah hati dan perasaan untuk menilai perkara secara berpada-pada. Setiap perkara yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Pada pendapat saya, kita tidak boleh menjdai terlalu sensitif dan terlalu 'ignorance'. Biarlah seimbang.

     Sekian saja entri pada kali ini. Ringkas. Renungkan sejenak.

P/S: meluahkan perasaan dan menenangkan fikiran melalui menulis. pengalaman membentuk seseorang. tidak semestinya harus bercakap dengan orang lain mengenainya. kadangkala dengan menulis, kita mampu muhasabah diri.

Do I look that I care? Sadly, sometimes I do care with that look that doesn't care. Damn!

Just another update. :)

Hello! We meet again diary! Exam done! Yeah! My last paper was on 18^th of January. Integrated Marketing Communication, or in simple but incomplete meaning, advertising. Although the paper gap is quite wide, but I can say that I completely blank during the exam. Who will care anyway? Hahahaha. That evening I went to play volleyball and that’s hang out with my friend, Vun and Eddy at Khaleel till 2am.

 On 19^th January, nothing much I did in the daytime, sleep whole day! Went to meeting for University Ambassador program at 8.30pm. At 9.30pm, I went to Georgetown with Vun and Yati. Too bad for Vun, he got stopped by police and using some ‘discussion’, he got off. Luckily I didn’t get caught. If yes, say good bye to my P license that will end this march (finally, after waiting for 2years).  We meeting for I’m not sure how many hours but I reach my room at 5am and sleep at 5.30am.

20^th of January, SRN (Sekretariat Rukun Negara) USM went to Pulau Jerejak for Leadership Camp. It was so much fun doing adventurous activities! I really love it! Jungle trekking, suspension bridge, flying fox, wall climbing, swimming, water polo’ing, and lepaking (ok, the lepaking was made up) were awesome! And my manly side was shining so bright! Now, I’m a ‘bro’ among my friends! Well, I’m not the ‘gigirl’ type from the beginning. Hahahaha. Not forgotten to mention, my leg cramped 2 times when I swimming and water polo’ing! Luckily I could recover fast. It was very damn tiring day! Pictures time~ *the pictures are not in sequence order*

Me and Khai racing in wall climbing, I lead! (which is later become 2nd..hahahah)

Resting beside the pool

I'm with Munchee

Give cool pose ever body.hahahahha

Again with Munchee

I'm with Shahrul at the boat

Windy~

Vun with Khai. Peace! ^^V

Feeling cool~ hahahaha

Vun and Khai again. :)

Like family picture.. hahahhaha 

Vun is so excited, Khai and Shahrul embarrassed. hahahaha. 

Before start our jungle trekking

Camwhore~

Vun is exhausted, Munchee excited and Khai is happy kid~ hahahaha

Before going down to the jetty.

Morning ice breaking session

Before go through the suspension bridge

Yay! jumping at suspension bridge

I’m about to sleep when Munchee said she want to do surprise birthday for Eddy! I can’t say no, arghhhh. So I go along with the plan. Eddy was very surprised! Munchee call him and tell him that her arm got dislocated again. He got panicked and run to see her. I and Shahrul prepared to surprise him. He was very shocked, we got him this small 4 cake and light up 2 big candle and 2small candle, indicate 22^nd birthday. Sweet serendipity for him? Remind me of my 20^th birthday, I celebrated with my youngest 2years old brother. 2big candle for me, 2small candle for him lighted on the same cake for both of us. So sweet right? I sleep around 1.30am last night, after finished uploaded photos. *again photos every body~*

He look cute here with his small cake. :)

Munchee with her portion.

Shahrul with his portion. *he will strangle me for uploading this not macho photo..hahahha*

The birthday boy.

Me with my portion.

Only four of us, the rest are too exhausted to join us. :)

Today, 21^st of January, I’m sitting in a gift shop. I work here since last September but quit for a while because of assignments due and exam. Now, I’m back to work again. I love to work here because it is relaxing and I can learn something new. Not every day but it’s better than waking up every afternoon doing nothing in my room. Apart from that, I can earn some money plus the boss is so good to me. Her family also very nice, they treat me well. My work also very flexible and not supervised strictly, so I can work freely and comfortably. It’s not that they didn’t watch me, but I’m supervised with CCTV. Still I find it’s okay than they watching here in this shop personally. I just love the feeling in here. J

Smile ! ^^V

with the ribbon that I do and my sleepy face! >.<"

P/S: a bit late to complete since I’m about to sleep just now, so I try to do some ribbon, to avoid me from sleeping. Hahahahahah. I miss to tie ribbon and I learn to do it here!

Last picture! Bye! :)