emotionally disturbed

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This thing has been in my mind for few days. This 'thing' stay in my mind because one of my friend said that I always give negative comments to him. Am I? Well, its not only him say that, there are few of my friends say that too. They say I always critics about anything. Especially idea that they gave. Am I too negative? I mean to people? I don't know. I always try to be positive even in the worst condition, I think I am. Maybe I say negative things to people. I don't know. I feel down because I made him feel that way. I always wanted and try to be supportive to my friends, at least that are my intention. I never want them feel negative about it. Maybe I said it in the wrong way? I am not down that he said I'm negative but I'm down because I made him feel so down. I'm not saying that I'm not hurt, I'm not saying I don't care because I do really care! Why I have to even bother about all this? Because I always did. 

P/S: it strike me so bad. I still remember how someone really special to me, my best friend said to me that I didn't understand her. I cried because of that. I cried because I feel and I think that I've been always by her side all the time. But she said I didn't understand her. I'm speechless. Usually I can talk back, at least to defend myself. But I really speechless that time. It dragged down all my confidence that time. I'm trying so hard cheer myself it really took me some time to accept it. But somehow, it still hurt now. Really hurt.

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