mumbling

Hello diary! This will be my first post since I'm back to my hometown. Tonight is my second night at home. My father? He's fine. My mother? She's doing okay and surprised to see me home. I didn't tell her I'm home. Tony? Still haven't meet him yet. Ridwan is doing great and we were having so much FUN in the house. Rahim and Raymie also doing good. Raymie is quite cold but that's normal. At least he is not running away from me like he did last year. Second night at home, Ridwan and me are having steamboat as our dinner. (I thought the food is not enough, but its really excessive! I guess I'm blinded by my big appetite. ==)

I don't know how I feel. But with Raymie around, I'm just happy. 2 weeks, almost 3weeks in KL was really fun. I joined programs and get myself a nice trip to Melaka. Its awesome if I have someone to accompany me there but I won't simply invite anyone. It will be more meaningful to go with the person you love and have some romantic moments there. Ouch! This is not 'jiwang' post, but I think its really great to go there with the person you love. (Well, I'm not that type that will show affection to person I love when we are surrounded by the people we know. Let it be our secret. ;) ) Okay, I do have different sides in relationship. I admit that. :p. Please keep my secret,diary. :p

Relationship. Ouch. Commitment. Feelings. And headache. Hahah, just kidding. Its not easy to be in a relationship (like real relationship, not just puppy love), but its really worth it if you are with the right person in the right timing at the right place. Sounds perfect? It is not possible for everyone but the possibility can come from anyone. Confused? Please re-read the phrase. :p I'm not good in a relationship but I still want to have it. Perfect guy doesn't exist, there are always flaws. I will be with the person that can accept me as I am and complete my life. Off course I need to accept him as he is and complete his life too. Win-win situation. I can't run anymore. Keep running and there will be burden to bare as you run. Decision has to be made so I can sort out my life.

Love, I just want to tell you that I'm a selfish person. Ego. And totally not ladies. Ignorant and have an average level of IQ. Sometimes clumsy and most of the time unpredictable. Like challenges but hate to make decision. Can't cope with continuous stress and can be mad and silly. Loud and not romantic. Don't just lead, please guide.

P/S: I'm lost! Bye! :p