11December journey...

        Today I went to Tg Piandang and Kuala Kurau. It’s not planned actually. Just suddenly feel so bored and invited some friend to tag along. On the way to Tg Piandang, I was so amazed. The view was so nice. It’s really a village environment. With the paddy field, the coconut trees, the fresh air and kampong houses. Feel very calm and happy. Then we reach at Tg Piandang town. What attracted me about this town is, it is dominated by the Chinese people. At Penang there are also Chinese village near at the jetty but I don’t know maybe I rarely saw Chinese village? *:D* Then we went to Kuala Kurau because we didn’t manage to find the Tanjung. *LOL* Before the turn to the town, we stopped under a bridge. It’s a car bridge, like flyover? It’s was a fishing village jetty. Remind me of Mengkabong, Tuaran. Kind of miss the environment of staying at fishing village. It might not the sweetest memory I had, but it still one of the history in my growth process. Where you alienated because you are different from others? But luckily I managed to communicate with the villagers. By holding to the malay saying, “Malu bertanya, sesat dijalanan”. In my case, it’s not that ‘malu’. But it more to, “If you are too shy to mix around, you will keep alienated”. (That just explain that I’m ‘tidak tahu malu’ type of person? Hahahahah I don’t care!) Okay, back to my journey today. Then we heading back to USM Engineering Campus since it already 6.30pm (we have activity to attend at 7.30pm). Its only take around 30minutes for us to go back to USM and taking 1and a half hour to reach Kuala Kurau!

        8pm, we depart to Kg Sg Kechil. Attending a ‘kenduri’. *;p* Actually we having a Malam Mesra with the villagers. The efforts of villagers to do the performance really touched my heart. They prepare a nasyid, and dance performances, a Chinese dance and Indian dance. USM also performed in the event. Overall it was OK. But the sound was not satisfying. They played the song wrongly several times and it was too loud! Okay, I should cut this off. I will end up complaining about it soon.

        Now I’m already at my room. Writing this post and after this planning to go to bed. Really damn sleepy right now. Need to wake up early to ‘bersukan’.

P/S: The moon is shining bright although it was not a full moon but still make me happy. :)

Conversation In The Middle Of Night

In the middle of night

It’s only the sound from the fan and my keyboard that I can hear

Sitting here and thinking

Talking and chatting

Mess with my own mind

Nothing to do but just keep pouring some words

Try to find the words that can describe what I feel inside

And yet I don’t know what it truly is

What I feel inside?

How to express it?

……..

I whisper to my mind

“Hello, are you still working there?”

“Stop all this nonsense you idiot! Don’t try to create an issue here!”

Mind answer to my whisper

“She is just can’t help herself to think. It’s worse in here. I’m tired to handle her emotion”

Heart suddenly interrupts the conversation

 “……………… I don’t know what’s happening actually.”

I answer after keep silent for a while

“You think too much! It’s nothing! You just try to have something to think. And it’s just simple things that you can’t decide.”

Mind tries to convince me

“All these feelings that you don’t really understand was just unsecure feeling. Keep worrying, wondering, and asking. The same question over and over again. Mind! Please help this girl to make up her decision. As long as she still don’t know what she want, both of us will continue suffers because of this idiot!”

Heart added

“Okay, what should I do now then?”

I asked both of them

“Switch off the laptop and go to bed! You have more important things to do when you wake up in the morning!”

Heart and Mind answer in the same time

“Okay, I guess this is really time to sleep”

I just answer them and smiled

…………………………..

Now I understand

Good night world

Please let the sun shine on me when I wake up

-pinkpink-

111210

1.10am

USM Engineering Campus

    Hello~ I'm here! Well, I already been here since 5th of December 2010 but going back to Main Campus at 7th of December 2010 because the real event will start at 10th of December 2010 (today la!). Just reach here about an hour ago. The other day that I came, I didn't bring along my laptop and it was really boring! So decided to bring it along. Tomorrow the registration of participant will start at afternoon. So I can sleep until that time (yipee!). At 3pm, we will be having a Gotong-Royong at Kg Sungai Kechil. *Excited mode! I want to feel the kampung breeze!* Now? What am I doing? Just feel want to write something here. 2 Days at island was really fun. *Penang Island la~~* Watch movie, watch TV, Sleep, Eat, buy 2 new comic, .............*LOL, berfaedah sangat la aktiviti saya..:p* But I wouldn't say it was totally useless activities because its makes me happy. And yes, everything happen for a reason or maybe reasons? But sometimes I feel that I think too much? Or worried too much? *okay, okay, don't start 'menyemak' your head Esther!* Let it be. Whatever happen next are for me to face it. Whatever happen next are still mysteries. So let the mysteries happen, and enjoy the moment. *inspired konon*XD

Pergi Untuk Kembali by Ello

Walaupun langit pada malam itu 
Bermandikan cahaya bintang 
Bulan pun bersinar betapa indahnya 
Namun menambah kepedihan 

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu 
Menyusuri liku hidupku 
Janganlah kau bimbang 
Dan janganlah kau ragu 
Berikanlah senyuman padaku 

Chorus: 
Selamat tinggal kasih 
Sampai kita juga lagi 
Aku pergi takkan lama 

Hanya sekejab saja 
Ku akan kembali lagi 
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti 



*not sure if this is sad or happy song...but the music and lyric quite meaningful...make me want to smile and shed tears in the same time...:')*

Hanyut by Faizal Tahir

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

*Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Rhythm Of Love by Plain White T's

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says "Boy quit foolin' around"


I told her "I love the view from up here
The warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung

She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me
She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry

And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love


*Fun song! The title matched the music and lyric!:D*

First Friday of December 2010

I'm quite confused now....

What did I do last night?

*.............................*

I know that I always forgot about my dreams, things I need to do, and sometimes what I'd done few days before..

But after that I can remember bit of it...

Now?

I can't even recalled what I'd done last night...

OMG!

warghhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

But I sleep quite well last night...

XD