Conversation In The Middle Of Night

In the middle of night

It’s only the sound from the fan and my keyboard that I can hear

Sitting here and thinking

Talking and chatting

Mess with my own mind

Nothing to do but just keep pouring some words

Try to find the words that can describe what I feel inside

And yet I don’t know what it truly is

What I feel inside?

How to express it?

……..

I whisper to my mind

“Hello, are you still working there?”

“Stop all this nonsense you idiot! Don’t try to create an issue here!”

Mind answer to my whisper

“She is just can’t help herself to think. It’s worse in here. I’m tired to handle her emotion”

Heart suddenly interrupts the conversation

 “……………… I don’t know what’s happening actually.”

I answer after keep silent for a while

“You think too much! It’s nothing! You just try to have something to think. And it’s just simple things that you can’t decide.”

Mind tries to convince me

“All these feelings that you don’t really understand was just unsecure feeling. Keep worrying, wondering, and asking. The same question over and over again. Mind! Please help this girl to make up her decision. As long as she still don’t know what she want, both of us will continue suffers because of this idiot!”

Heart added

“Okay, what should I do now then?”

I asked both of them

“Switch off the laptop and go to bed! You have more important things to do when you wake up in the morning!”

Heart and Mind answer in the same time

“Okay, I guess this is really time to sleep”

I just answer them and smiled

…………………………..

Now I understand

Good night world

Please let the sun shine on me when I wake up

-pinkpink-

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