Lagu?

Amaran: Bahasa rojak dan rosak.

Sebenarnya tiada benda pun mau tulis cuma bosan. Masa tidur belum lagi kritikal. Hahahaha. Ok la, mari kongsi lagu-lagu baru (rasanya) yang saya dengar beberapa minggu ni di radio. Lagu-lagu melayu secara khusus. Sangat menarik. Lama suda nda layan lagu melayu ni buka radio seja macam2 lagu menarik. Hahahaha.

1. Anak Kampung - ok, yang ni mau muntah sudah dengar. dari versi original, di bahasa melayu-kan dan sekarang suda upgrade pigi rap. macam2!

2. Kalau Aku Kaya - ini sangat catchy, asal dengar lirik mesti senyum2. rasa comel pun ada. rasa macam mo sing along seja d opis tu. nyanyi dalam hati jak la. kekekeke. "Dia panggil aku sir aku panggil dia der~"

3. Lelaki - peh, lagu straight forward. mcm lagu orang frust seja. tapi asal saya dengar ni lagu, saya suka dengar muzik dia. "Lelaki tak gunaaaaa~" ambek kau. hahahahaha

4. Jerrypah - ini lagu paling manang. saya nda paham tajuk. serius! tapi saya suka lagu dia muzik dan lirik sama2 kiut. bwahahaha.. 

5. Rembau Most Wanted - masa saya dengar ni lagu, otomatik teringat satu orang. hahahaha. sekarang n9 semakin rancak aaa.. kekekeke. thumb up!

6. Terima Kasih - ini lagu rock sweet. paling! asal dengar ni lagu mesti senyum. dulu ada dgr, tapi nda peduli, sebab jarang buka radio, youtube pun jarang2 on. dan cerita mcmana saya boleh p menyiasat ni lagu pun buli tahan juga la..hahaha.. terima kasih sayang. :)

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Okay, tiada idea suda. wifi uni block radio online. so tia dapatcheck carta. ini seja yang buli ingat. malas mo pakai otak heavy2, mo tidur! mo p keraja. babai

Gloomy day

Its a gloomy day.

Been sleeping for straight 12 hours! *awake two times and didn't bother to get up from bed, so fall asleep again* Feel so down, extremely down. Well, this is like being the typical me. I'm easily affected by extreme mood change. Wake up, clean up room, fold clothes and after this laundry. The laundry maybe after grab some food at the cafe. Haven't eat anything for the past 12 hours! 

Been thinking very hard this few days. Go home or go away. My current emotion tell me that I should go away, but my head telling me to go home, first. Things really messed up right now. Probably I should go back first and find job at my hometown. To be honest, I don't have any career planning. Then why I went through all the hassle to study over all these years? For the sake of feeding my satisfaction, ego to be precise. I never promised my grandma to further my study, but I did it to fulfill her wish because I didn't see her in her final moment. She did visit me in my dream though.

If I were to set goal for my future, I will be strayed by my over fantasy perfect living. Too good to be true. Reality is kind of pissing me off now, but I just go with it. I become afraid to imagine my future, to dream. I never really plan anything in my life. I hate the fact that I keep comparing myself to others that seems to be just fine. I know they have their own hardship but I find it hard that they can do it and I can't. I have this feeling of don't want to be lower than anyone since I was small. Maybe that's the reason I tried to do everything but never actually master anything. 

Try everything, master nothing. 

I live my life by believing that it's better to know everything. But everything seems to be so unreal right? And the fact that I have commitment problem is just so obvious. I have extremely spike and downfall in emotion and motivation. Long-term commitment. There's a time that you will feel so down and feel commitment become a burden. Where you don't have freedom to choose whether to hold on or move on. 

Life is a constant battle. Which bridge to cross, which bridge you should burn. And the bridge is not there forever.

I feel so tired and want to move on. My alter ego telling me that to stop halfway is not my style. I don't want to lose. I want to accept the fact that I can't do everything but I ended up doing nothing. Totally. 

People said time will pass by, time will tell, time will heal, time will show you the way. But time is what we are lacking. So much to do, too little time. 

Anyway, I have to set new goals in my life. It is to tiring to live your life everyday without knowing what you want to achieve. I refuse to live that way. 

Its gloomy day. And I want to keep a little bit of sunshine in my inner self.

Jun

*tarik napas panjang-panjang* .... Hah!

Hi! Mo dekat satu bulan tidak menulis sini. Peh, ada seja mood mau menulis, tapi bagi keutamaan kerja lain. Kerja la sangat kan? Hahahah. Jarang ba suda buka laptop sekarang. Mana tahan, di opis suda satu hari tgk skrin, menaip2 takan2, takanan la! Huhuhu.. Balik bilik, buka laptop untuk tgk anime seja. Hahaha. kerja tidak jalan, blog tidak update.

Teknologi canggih suda, boleh tulis diari online. Tapi lain la ba perasaan kalau menulis di kertas, feeling habis. puih! hahahaha. 

Jumaat, 14/06/2013.

Semenjak praktikal ni, semakin menjadi pendiam. Kalau bising, bising berabis. Kalau diam, diam berabis juga. Memang kaki extreme. Hahahaha. Kalau prestasi naik, naik la mendadak tu. Kalau prestasi down, down la berabis. Sandi juga la. Walaupun nda la campen dalam kerja skrg, saya rasa saya suka juga praktikal sana. Nda puas hati, tapi kepala buli tahan juga logik dia. Betukar suda saya jadi si pendiam. Hahaha. Dari dulu pemberontak, skrg memberotak dalam jiwa seja la....

Bisuk2 la sambung, mo buat kerja kunu. HAhA. babai. :)

Lelah.

Sangat tidak bermaya. Penat. Macam lama pula tidak menulis sini. Selama tidak menulis, banyak perkara berlaku. Sekarang rasa mau menulis saja, tidak mau berfikir. 

Lelah, kepala pening. 

Biarkan mereka, aku tidak berdaya.

wuuu~

Masa : 7.27 pm
Lokasi : Rahsia
Motif: Tiada

Okay, mari berehat sebentar. Setelah mencuba menyiapkan laporan sejak jam 5 pm tadi, sekarang masa untuk berehat seketika. Lokasi dirahsiakan. Cuma kenyataannya, lokasi sejuk mengigit tulang! gggrrr! Sabar la. Duduk di sebuah kedai yang agak terkenal dalam kalangan penduduk kota *cheehhhh*. Suka suasana di sini. Okay, siapa yang kenal saya, mesti tau saya di mana sekarang ni. Abaikan. 

Sedang menghabiskan masa untuk menunggu perjalanan untuk ke destinasi seterusnya. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. :)

Social medias

yeah, as promised, another entry. This will be quite short. Yes, short.

Initially on previous post, I want to talk about this things that I will write here but I strayed. Hahaha. Typical me. Lost focus. Okay, actually I just want to talk about my social media discovery these few months. It was really awesome, addictive and make you want more than you needed. Exaggerate? You will not say it after you tried it. 

I'm not updated with fashion trend nor style. I can say that my sense of fashion and style is totally beginner or maybe lower than beginner. I never really into fashion. The girl that always in mess look, my hair always in a mess, casually wear whatever available in her wardrobe (mostly are university t-shirt) and ... *this has to stop, I will downgrade myself further. Hahaha* Because of my work, I have to be more fashion conscious. I really think that I will be in a mess, so I got it right. But that doesn't mean I didn't give my very best to do it. I take this job as social lesson. Positive! :)

Okay, Facebook and Twitter are no new for me. I have that one. Mostly used for procrastination, complaining, and self expression. Hahaha. What's new then? Pinterest, Indulgy, StumbleUpon and Tumblr. Okay, I've heard Tumblr before and never really open and check it. Outdated to that extend. Me and my self locked fantasy world.

Pinterest is a social media that is very big in US or any part of the world that I don't know(which is quite  a lot). HAHAH. You can like, pin and comment on the pictures and save it to your own folder there. Fashion? Pet? Travel? Art? Recipe? As long as they have picture, you can put it there. Awesome? Yeah! And be careful because its very addictive! Follow awesome people that post awesome pictures and you will have more desire to add up to the currently desire you have. Try it guys, its really awesome. *okay, I have the feeling that most people know about Pinterest. Hahahah*

Moving to next one, Indulgy . This one is awesome too! Omaigooddd. Its new compared to Pinterest but I love Indulgy more because they maximize the pictures display. It doesn't offer much information compared to Pinterest but I can assure that you will enjoy to view pictures in Indulgy. Their tagline is, Everyone deserves a perfect world! Yeah, so check that websites for more information. My words is subjective, the pictures there will tell you more.

StumbleUpon is a website that have collections of the websites worldwide! Everyone can find websites and share their website there for more audience. For a person that doesn't really have specific interest when finding something to read on internet, this is just perfect for me. They have narrowed down the interest and you can stumble into websites, articles, and pictures too! or you can try all interest and just randomly stumble the page until you find something that attracts your attention. For me, I like the funny/humor and some fast/simple info or facts since I don't really enjoy heavy reading. Everything is there! They have around 512 interests, have 4 million lists and 3,000 channel available. After some time, they will start recommend articles/websites for you based on your stumble history. You can save the article for later, create list for specific interest, following other stumbler and interact with them, and find trending article there. Go and stumble! You might be surprised and enjoy what you found there.

Woah! I write a lot! *I should claim from these company for giving reviews, hahahaha* Never mind, people said that good things should be share to other as well. Don't keep it to yourself. Don't be selfish. You can try all the social media I tried, but be careful, they are so addictive. Don't blame me. Hahahaha.

P/S:  Thinking to write some more notes on my Facebook. But this will be very dragging. My good feelings are going to waste for tonight. Inspiration, please come again next time. I need sleep now, have to work tomorrow. Ciao!

Sport and Art of me

Hello everyone! *quite in good mood today* Its not that something good happened, it just that my life is smoother today. Thank God for it! It doesn't mean my work/job/issue is settled, somehow I find some way to handle it. You only live once, (or always typed as YOLO, just found out recently) so live it to the fullest. There is no time to feel bad, manage your life, organize it, cherish what you see/have/own in your life and be prepared for the wrinkle situation. Be composed, panic will not help! :)

Okay, today I was informed that there will be physical fitness test on May for USM athletes. Well, I'm not really that sport enthusiast, so maybe I'm a part-time athlete? Hahaha. Still, I have to admit that my physical fitness is kind of out of shape. *I have to start asking my boss if I can get access to the gym, I need exercise badly!* I considered this as positive enforcement since I've been thinking to hit the gym these few days. Now, I have EXTREMELY STRONG reason for hitting the gym *putting aside the fact I'm growing horizontally everyday! urghhh* The next MASUM will be around August, and I want to make myself achievement to participate this year and make my mark on competing for the straight 4 years in my university life. Go! Go! Go! 

I also got call from colleagues in dancing group. It seems that they have performance tomorrow and they want to practice tonight the same dance that we dance during the FESCO 2013 at UTP last Saturday. Too bad that I returned their call quite late so they already choreographed new dance for tomorrow. Well, they are experienced so this is just a small matter. All the best tomorrow guys! They also informed that we might have performance next week, for what event I don't know. Haha. They say they will update it later. 

Thinking back on our dance last Saturday, I'm a bit upset for my low performance because lack of training. Its like the worst feeling ever, but I do gave my best that night. One of my wishlist achieved, to dance in competition outside university. I know I'm not really good in dancing but I want exposure. I want to join this group since first year and now its already my final year and I managed to join them! Although its very last minute, it just feel so different when dancing with those experienced dancer. I'm having hard time to learn the step but I love it. Thank you for the opportunity given, it was really a wonderful moment. :)

What else? Hurm. This post quite long huh? Ok, time to end it. I will continue to write on the next entry. Entry that too long is kind of boring right? Ciao for now. Another entry will up soon. <3 p="">