merepek. ==

hello! hari selasa, Tuesday. tiada juga yg special tapi terasa mau menulis sini. oh! ada sebenarnya yg mau ditulis, pasal semalam. semalam ada dinner PERSIS, Perkumpulan Siswa Siswi Sabah. ya la, saya memang org Sabah. :p tema dinner semalam ialah 'Prince and Princess'. fuh! semua memang cantik2 la semalam, memang berabis! hahahahahah. (Saya pun. :p) tapi macam biasa la, mesti lelaki yg kurang. Prince yg semakin susah.. Princess semakin banyak! Selamat tinggal zaman dulu2.. Hahahaha.. Is this a threat for me? Maybe. Tapi saya rasa ok jak pun. Sesiap yang rasa terancam, sila la cari USP or KSP (Unique Selling Point or Key Selling Point) hahahahaha. Sebagai budak marketing, jargon2 suda menjadi isi dalam diri. (Cheh, mo cakap diri bakal marketer yg berjaya la ni?hahahahaahah) god willing. ;) ok,balik kepada dinner semalam. saya dengan junior menjadi emcee informal. mungkin banyak yang rasa bosan semalam. but, saya puas hati dapat bercakap! (Punyala selfish! hahahahahah) sorry la rakan2, saya memang suka bercakap dan juga menulis. tapi off course la bukan formal. sebab saya ni bukan la bersopan santun,berbudi bahasa, saya cakap seja apa yg saya mu cakap. siapa tersinggung,minta maaf la, bukan cara saya menjaga setiap hati. just treat u like an adult. hahahahah. again I'm out of topic.

P/S: it was fun last night..:) that's it! :p

frustrated and annoyed

I feel frustrated. Really frustrated. I tell myself many times that not everyone can accept what you say to them. But yes, when you are someone close to me. Why can't you listen first. You totally reject it. I wouldn't care if its from other person, but its really hurt me. I know you can't see it, but can't you open up your mind? I tried to explain, but maybe that comes with the saying, 'if you already hate it, you can't find any goodness in it. I know I sound pathetic here. It hurts me to know that you already blocked your mind because of the thing that you hate. Yeah, it just me. I'm so stupid because feeling like this. Maybe I should let it slide. But you know what, I would not let this annoy me so long. Cause I know its not worth it. I tried to help but you are the one that don't want to be helped. Someday, you will see it. I know you will.

P/S: annoyed plus frustrated. lesson of the day: don't just reject other people words, no need to accept, but try to listen before you reject it. and, don't let those kind of people annoy you. they are not stupid, it just that they don't see what you see. they don't think the way you think.. chill!!

some random thought

while in class today, we are doing some discussion about 1Malaysia products and services. 1Malaysia products and services. new initiative, have good potential but still in the introduction stage. we are doing analysis about 1Malaysia products and services, about the potential and problems. in the same time, searching for solution for all the problems. well, its only recommendations though. its hard and stressful if you do in last minute, which is I always did. hahahaha. but in the same time, it is really a good issues to be looked at. 

p/s: whether we like it or not, we have no other choice than to get used of it. real world, realities. full of uncertainty, open up to opportunity, take risk, positive thinking.

mumble.mumble

Everyone have some little secret that they don't want others to know. Some of them are shared between close/ best friend. Some of them just prefer to keep it totally secret. And I know that some of them want to share it with someone but the 'someone' is not there (not yet found la~) hahahahaha.

Okay, that is my intro. probably what I'm about to write will be totally no correlation with what I want to write here. Actually, I just want to have more control on myself. To achieve things I want to get. To do things that I need to do. My level of prioritize are very sucks. Sometimes I just can't differentiate/confused on which is more important to do. But I know 1thing for sure, I hate losing. I always want to be on top and forgot the essential of be on the bottom. I know a lot of people want to be on top, the view is more wide on the top and you can see a lot of things. But do you know that if you are at the bottom, although your view is limited but you can focus on the one in front of your eyes. And not forgotten, when you look up, you can see the people above you and you can set your target. You will be more motivated! (depends on how you perceive it)

some advice from me to me:
1. when you are on top, don't forget to look down and remember your struggle all the way to where you are now.

2. when you are on the bottom, don't give up and set your goals to be on top. cherish the experience, enjoy the journey to the top.

:)

tekanan.bertangguh.

*tarik nafas dalam-dalam dan hembus dengan kuat sambil menjerit*
"warghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

okay, tidak berkeinginan untuk menulis secara formal harini. dan perasaan untuk menulis guna bahasa rojak atau campur-campur sedang membuak-buak. ini merupakan suatu luahan perasaan yang tidak tenteram. apa kes tidak tenteram ni? mungkin kalau kamu berada di tempat saya masa ni, kamu dapat rasa haba-haba ketidaktenteraman ni.

minggu ini, sudah masuk minggu ke-12. kenapa pula kalut? baru minggu ke-12, belum lagi final exam (sebulan lagi la!!!). chill suda. chill? masuk esbok pun nda boleh chill suda ni. cair kali tu ais2 dalam esbok. minggu ni la smua assignment mau dihantar! wade? terasa mau menghantak kepala pun ada ni skrg! sambil menangis2. (sangat la buruk tu imaginasi) bukan banyak pun subjek ni sem, 4ja. tapi? kenapa pula mau kalut2 ni? itu la paling buat sakit hati. subjek sikit, tapi kenapa banyak masalah ni? sebelum ni, setakat 6/7 subjek, nda juga sampai begini tekanan dia. (yaka? lupa suda.hahahahhaha)

ini tidak boleh jadi ni. kalau berterusan begini memang sandi! target mau dean list, tapi kalau begini la gaya ni, makin lama makin jauh tu dean list melambai-lambai. sakit hati! bertenang diri, berhenti fikir bukan-bukan!! cuba ko start buat tu kerja pink! mengeluh seja kerja ko ni sekarang. macamlah boleh siap kalau ko mengeluh-ngeluh sana kan? apa ba yang ko bertangguh-tangguh ni? suka betul ko bertangguh kan? :'(

*terasa mau menangis*

P/S: How I wish someone can give me some motivation during this state. So sentimental thinking aren't that? Screw you!

early morning..

Hi! This is my first post using my new Blackberry! Its been 5days since I started using this Blackberry.. Overall? Still satisfied.. But! I got problem with Digi line in the beginning. They keep notifying me that my credit balance is insufficient. To think that I just reloaded my number, it really makes me feel annoyed! Luckily its only line problem.. If Digi really strangle my credit like that, I would never hesitate to terminate its BB plan..hahahahah..

Actually I just woke up,plan to sleep again later.. Yesterday, there are earthquake happens at Acheh.. Its really near to Penang. I didn't feel the 1st earthquake, and only feel the 2nd earthquake.. Its my first time feel the shake from an earthquake! What an experience!! I see things are moving! Its predicted that it will arrive in Penang at 9pm last night.. But I didn't get any update about it..hopefully everything will be ok..

Last night I attended the Infonite about a business plan,interesting.. maybe I can learn something from this..Looking forward to this idea..


*I feel somehow down.. it is understandable if my mom doesn't know anything about hppening here..But my dad? Maybe he still doesn't know about it..I will wait..(And 'he' actually called me last night asking about my condition here! At least he still concern..) I will wait for you dad..

A month without any update!

       wow~ hahahaha. I'm really busy, maybe not busy but has many things to do! I'm really exhausted, mentally and physically! My emotion are not stable and my patient also tested! :'( I'm about to be in mega depress but luckily I still got my entertainments and lots of other things to do. Almost every night of meetings, paperwork to submit, report to submit, event to handle and also people attitude to handle! The last time I update my blog was before the semester started and now its already the 5th week! What did I do this 5 week? Let me list out the sequence of events. (checking my planner)

20 Feb - Second semester started!

22 Feb - Meeting at Putrajaya

22 & 23 Feb - Site visit (Felda Gunung Besout 2, Sungkai, Perak)

25 Feb - Paris 1month! :) (Alice's daughter)

1Mar - Final check ICT Village

2 - 4 Mar - ICT Village (Felda Gunung Besout 2, Sungkai, Perak) (for this event, I was in-charge for the opening and closing! Thanks to En Jaya, that is something new for me and it turned to be good experience.)

5 Mar - Ko-K Karate started (finished my ko-k long time ago but because of the Secretary is away, I have to take over and as the Vice President have to meet the junior and recruit for new karate club members)

6 Mar - Start practice for MCB 2012 (ohhh, forgot to mention, I'm the one that responsible for the songs that we will use, the step and choreograph. Which is kind of challenging for me! wargh!not forgotten, every night training for 4-5 hours!)

6 Mar - Meeting for Karate Closed Tournament. (I really don't understand, we already started last semester and still last minute? Really don't understand, my first experience as the Head of Project. Quite disastrous.)

17 Mar - Fit and Feminine Volleyball (2nd place! hahahaha)

17 Mar - Final check for Karate Closed Tournament.

18 Mar - Karate Closed Tournament

19 Mar - ICT Village report due

20 Mar - Edit ICT Village report

21 Mar - Letter of Appointment for University Ambassador (Dewan Agung Tuanku Canselori, UiTM Shah Alam)

to summarize:

1. University Ambassador (UA)

2. Karate Club (Vice President & Head of Karate Closed Tournament)

3. PERSIS (Malam Citra Bayu 2012)

I know that out there there are people who are lot more busier than me and the example are really close to me. I know that person.Hahaha. But this is really something! I wish that this year I will become wiser and learn lot of new things. And yes, I experience lot of thing and hunger for some more! maybe later I will explain about the activities/events that I joined/involved. Tonight I just want to post the reasons why I didn't write in my blog for such a long time.

P/S: I'm happy that my result for last semester improved and was the best result during my university year! Although didn't get dean list, I'm still grateful for it. Now I'm aiming for dean list this semester! But based on my schedule, I'm afraid I will not have time for study! :'( I need to control myself more! Study! Study! Study!