Silent Love

LOVE...

simple 4 words but the meaning is universal and very deep...

it can be anything to anyone....

as for me?

I have grown up with 'silent' love...

silent?

you love someone but you didn't act like one and talk like one too...

I think I should not continuously continue this 'silent' legacy...

I should go out and grab the chance...

well...

this kind of love doesn't shows...

this kind of love always create misunderstanding...

this kind of love make people insecure...

this kind of love can make the person that you love started to hate you...

there are so many DISADVANTAGES of this kind of love...

but some people tend to do it...

and yes...

I'm the one on it...

this silent love had been tearing my heart since long ago...

the person that I love just one by one leave me....

and I only watching on the sideline...

and see as they leave....

I never fight for it....

I prefer to hide at a dark place and comfort my own feeling...

that just keep continuing....

for unknown reason....

then after I reminisce...

It's my father!

okay...

Thanks dad for sharing this unique trait of you...

and make me totally unique person...

but I don't care this time....

I want to break the tradition...

I never do this before...

for unknown reason also...

Now...

I want to FIGHT for the person I love...

Maybe realizing it now will be too late...

but...

I will keep trying...

Now I'm already determined to go for it...

No matter how shameful it is...

Just go on....

I'm tired blaming and regretting for all the things that I have done and didn't do..

blaming who?

myself...

I keep blaming myself until I'm so depressed sometimes...

stressed and low self esteem.....

there are no such things like 180 degrees sudden change....

try with a small change...

We can do no great things,only small things with great love.- Mother Teresa

okay...

thanks to Lally Liong

for the quote to inspire...

also a words from my friends also make me realize how I close myself to other people...

"not rite just u know u never let anybody understand u "

maybe I have known about this before....

but I tempted to ignore it....

hurm....

Those words really wake me up....

*dush3*

and the point of all this things I write here just simple...

I don't want to let you go because I will never find somebody like you again!

I love you so much and I need you too....

I don't want to let you go!NO!

Finally...

What happened a year ago...

Happen again today....

Please give me strength...

I barely can breathe now....

Luckily its holiday...

No ONE will disturb me this time..

27 Aug, 28 Aug, 29 Aug, 30 Aug, 31 Aug, 1 Sept, and 3 Sept 2006

27 August 2006 - watched 'free show'....so shocked and surprised....and it was really disgusting....*Puke*

28 August 2006 - back to school after holiday for 1 week...and the beginning of test! *paper BM,BI, Chem and EST*..and same like other Monday...It was shopping time! actually it was only for groceries...(;P)...and the guy that I have crush before suddenly like shows some interest....what the???! but I ignore him and say that we are just a friend...XD

29 August 2006 - My younger brother 15th birthday....

30 August 2006 - gathered my classmates autograph...the last day of the test....*hurrayyy*

31 August 2006 - Malaysia 49th National Day....and also reminder...have to fetch 'person' at Airport...on October...=.="

1 September 2006 - Mathematics and Additional Mathematics results are out... the teacher really dissatisfied with the result...she tell us to write 50 correction answer for each question that we had answered wrongly...and the most BEST things that had happened to me is when I answered all the question wrongly....*yeehaaaa~~~*

3 September 2006 - went 'out'...hahahaha...Girls day out! having fun to the max....but some incident had spoiled the fun...damn you the spoiler! hahahha

Pretty Girls VS Not Pretty Girls

Attention...This is reality...Guys out there....most of the guys out there....*not all*

*If pretty girls are quite,

guys will say: Wow, this is the girl that I've been looking for....

*If not pretty girl are quite,

guys will say: she don't know how to communicate isn't it?

*If pretty girl do nasty things,

guys will say: Maybe she got problems....

*If not pretty girls do nasty things,

guys will say: huh! your looks just same as your behavior...

*If pretty girls help guys in their hard times,

guys will say: this girls are really nice....

*If not pretty girls help guys in their hard times,

guys will say: are you trying to flirt me by helping me?

*If pretty girls paired with handsome guys,

guys will say: wow, they looked good together... the guy was very lucky...

*If not pretty girls with handsome guys,

guys will say: the girls must have done something not good to get the guy.... poor guy...

*If pretty girls being leave by their boyfriend,

guy will say: what a waste...the guy ,must be stupid!

*If not pretty girls being leave by their boyfriend,

guys will say: no wonder her BF leave her.

*If pretty girls drive BMW,

guys will say: don't know which rich man she had seduce...

*If not pretty girls drive BMW,

guys will say: maybe her father was rich...

*If pretty girls crying,

guys will sad: don't worry...i will be here for you....

*If not pretty girls crying,

guys will say: shut up!you are so noisy....cry...cry..and cry...

Not believe with all these?? think back..

More Than Words by Frankie J

There are 3 version of this song*that I know*....But I like the Frankie J version the most...Maybe its because its genre more to R&B...This song really leave a big impact on me... I've known this song since 2006*its already famous before that right?* So as a conclusion, I'm kind of 'ketinggalan'...hahahha

[Verse 1]
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you not to say
But if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
that you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know.
[Verse 2]
What would you do
If my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I Love You

More than words

[Verse 3]
Now that I've tried to
Talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is
Close your eyes and just reach out your hand
And touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words
Is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me, yeah
Cause I'd already know

Long Distance Relationship

My topics to write today..

This things crossed my mind when I'm studying at the library in this afternoon.. 

I'd like to share about my opinion about
"Long Distance Relationship".

Long distance relationship for me is a relationship that we have to travel at least 30minutes by air and 2hours by land. If the distance is less than I mentioned, i still consider it as a 'short distance relationship'. The issue that I want to write here is 'What is the benefits and disadvantages of long distance relationship?'
*of course this is based on my opinion, this not only work on 1side but it can be the other or both side*

Benefits:

1. We learn to maintain the relationship and learn to be faithful to our partner.

2. We can give some space to each other so that we wouldn't become boring to see them every day.

3. We learn the feeling of 'miss' to each other.

4. We can spare time to our friends without just hang out with our partner.

5. We learn to appreciate the relationship.

6. All the 'love-love' speech is more deep and sentimental.

Disadvantages:

1. If we have a quarrel with our partner,its hard to make up without seeing each other.

2. We tend to feel jealous and always suspicious what our partner did.

3. We have the chance of being unfaithful. Same goes to our partner.

4. Spend a lot of money on prepaid. (SMS, Call, MMS, 3G, BubbleTalk etc.)

5. Hard to meet each other, cannot go to date. Especially on special occasion such as Birthdays, Valentines, New Years , etc.

6. The time when you need them the most, they cannot come to comfort you. And you will feel alone.

So thats it... actually there are still a lot of the benefits and disadvantages.. But its still depends on ourself.. I have experienced long distance relationship before...but it turned out not so good...I have kind of trauma because of this things.. there are people that I've known they are too far from each other..but still in a good condition..may god bless all of you....and also there is a case of my friend where she and her BF never meet before and they can have a good relationship...(recently they had met, and still in a good relationship)..we cannot said that distance doesn't matter, but what the most matter is how you feel...and what you feel, you might not know how to show it (in this case,difficult in both distance)..choose and act wisely in relationship...

How To Catch Liar?

Do your friend lied to you? Do your boyfriend/girlfriend lied to you? Here some tips to check it...XD


1. How is the person speaking?
*Although a change in voice can be the tip-off to a lie, experts say that to be sure, you should also pay attention to a person's speech rate and breathing pattern -- if either speeds up or slows down, chances are you're not hearing the whole truth.


2. What is the person saying?
*Liars tend to avoid exclusionary words like "but," "nor," "except," and "whereas," because they have trouble with complex thought processes. Liars are less likely to use the words "I," "me," and "mine." In their attempts to distance themselves psychologically from their tall tales, liars will tend to communicate using fewer personal pronouns.


3. Is his or her face giving it away?
*You may think disguising your true feelings is easily accomplished with the help of a smile, but the expressions that flash across your face will give away what you're really thinking -- whether you know it or not. Experts advise paying close attention to the micro-expressions that a face can't hide. These clues are often so difficult to detect that even trained experts have trouble discerning them.


4. How is the person smiling?
*A smile can sometimes mask a person's true feelings. Pay close attention to how a person smiles as well as other facial movements. You may be able to detect the emotions he or she is trying to hide -- such as fear, anger, and disgust. A true smile will incorporate both a person's lips and eyes.


5. Does the body language follow the story?
*It's more important to examine a person's entire demeanor, as there's no one feature that's apt to give away a liar. Honesty is characterized by features that are in sync with one another -- so besides posture, note the fit between face, body, voice, and speech.


6. Is your subject behaving uncharacteristically?
*Experts believe changes in a person's baseline -- how she or he generally conducts herself or himself-- are worthy of your attention. You should weigh rate of speech, tone of voice, posture, and hand gestures against what you know, along with the context of the situation.


7. Is the question simple or embarrassing?
*It's normal for someone to look away when asked a difficult question. But when someone avoids your gaze when asked a simple question, you should be suspicious.


So how was it? Is he or she lying to you? Discover it yourself....


this info was gained at-->>How to Catch a Liar