Depressed Mode

Today is Malaysia 53rd Birthday....

the works that I listed before already done...

but there still have few more going on this week before semester break...

Actually I feel so depressed right now...

wanna go out and having dinner outside...

want to walk at shopping mall to ease this depressed mode...

wanna eat a lot of things....

wanna watch movie...

hurm...

a lot of planning....

but I think not gonna happen....

because too many things to be done...

but....

if my craziness attacking....

there is nothing impossible for me...

I really hate this kind of feeling....

if 'they' had started...

it was the beginning of melancholy episodes in my daily life....

sweep away my happiness....

spoil all the moods....

destroy my life routines....

I think it better for me to go to the doctor...

am I gonna be one of the honored members of Bukit Padang?

hopefully not....

Tg Rambutan also no way!

hahahahah... 

before I end up saying too many craps here...

its better for me to go out!

breathe some fresh air....

ease my heart and my mind...

there is no way I can study in this mode...

hurm....

till we meet soon in another post...

bye..bye...my diary~

Words or Actions?

its not the thousand words that come out from your mouth that really matter...but how you feel inside your heart that important....but there are things that can't be expressed in words...and can be known if and only if their feeling are mutual....that is what i always believed...but i still don't get it...'action speak louder than words' sometimes,action just worsen the situation and when u try to make it better...now the the quote applicable 100%,no matter what you say after doing an action....the impact of the slight action is bigger than thousand words you have said before and after the action....

One By One

1. 19Aug 2010, BM Comprehension test!
2. 21Aug 2010, Day Out! XD
3. 22 Aug 2010, breaking fast with anak-anak yatim at Nurhidayah, Perak..
4. 23Aug 2010, English oral presentation titled ' what I want to improve about myself?'
5. 24Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Midterm Exam.
6. 24 Aug 2010, PERSIS Meeting (PWTC briefing).
7. 24 Aug 2010, breaking fast with Vice Minister of  Malaysia Transportation.
8. 26 Aug 2010, going to PWTC, breaking fast with Sabah Chief Minister.
9. 29Aug 2010, performance at EPCC
10. 30Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Assignment due! (haven't started anything yet!)

*Things that already DONE.*

13Aug, 14Aug, 15Aug, 18Aug, 20Aug, 25Aug 2006

13August 2006 - well...written in my diary...I'm missing him...hahahah...this time planning to get new number phone...too much unknown numbers calling and texts...feel very unpleasant when cannot reach him through phone.

14August 2006 - started training cadet marching for the campaign ' kibarkan Jalur Gemilang'

15August 2006 - feel so 'geram', he is missing for few days and suddenly popped out without apologizing...looks like my relationship already known by people...huhuh...and after I have known him...surprisingly there are 2-3 guys asked me to become their GF...too late...I already have him in my life..;)

18August2006 - the 'Kibarkan Jalur Gemilang' day... *suddenly remembered...we have to wear 'tudung' in this march..feel and look so awkward....so hot~~~*

20August2006 - hurm....fight with him...for unclear reason...hahaha...sulk mode..."Off Phone and Serious Silent" operation...huhuhu...strolling with best friend...with another friend of her...I thought her friend is a boy...well she looked like one too...but accidentally know that she is a girl...funny moment...;p

25August2006 - did a confession to him...huhuh...like digging your own graveyard...but after confessing feel more relaxed...then straight to the point take action...clearing all the unclear things...but also feel stress at the same time..and what did I do if I'm stress? Went out to take some fresh air...but dunno where did I go that time...it only 2.10pm when I write this entry....*If I'm stressed, I tend to go out to anywhere to release my tension...that makes me always MISSING and CANT BE ACCESSIBLE FOR A MOMENT*

Suddenly...

actually I didn't planned to write anything today....

but there is something happened and make me want to write something here...

just want to release the burden in my heart....

want to talk about risk....

life is all about making decisions or choices...

its not always what we need....

sometimes what we want is more important to us...

and off course, it still up to us to decide....

which things that we THINK we need or want....

and when it comes to choose...

there it comes....

the RISKS or CONSEQUENCES that we might face after made a decision...

its like an INVESTMENT...

you make your investment when you think its has the potential to produce profit...

but....

things can happen others than we have thought..

if it produce PROFIT...

off course you will be happy and continue with it....

or some (very little or no one) might stop their investment....

but many of them will continue it....

well there is a simple saying for this situation that sound like this...

"Siapa mau rugi??Semua mau untung..."

if it LOSS??

many people will quit the investment....

and just a little of them will continue it....

the people that quit will not stop there....

they will find others opportunity to gain back what they have lose in by investing in new investment...

and for those that continue the investment....

they may have various reasons to stay...

one: to minimize their loses...

if they quit....they may have to face bigger loses....

two:they believe that the investment will gain profit soon...

economic can change rapidly without people even realize it...

and they will gain their profit suddenly...

same goes to us...HUMAN...

and it was even drastic for them....

because they are open to bias,emotion,moods,the most important is..

they can use their BRAIN properly than any other species...

no one can run from making a decision....

for a really simple example...

ME....

if I choose to go sleep few hours ago....

probably I can get enough sleep and do my work tomorrow...

but I didnt choose to sleep....

I choose to do some of my works and keep awake until now...

even thought I had lot of things to do tomorrow that use lot of energy and enough sleep...

i take the risk to do my works and will cause me really exhausted tomorrow...

Updated "NEED TO DO LIST"

1. 19Aug 2010, BM Comprehension test!
2. 21Aug 2010, Day Out! XD
3. 22 Aug 2010, breaking fast with anak-anak yatim at Nurhidayah, Perak..
4. 23Aug 2010, English oral presentation titled ' what I want to improve about myself?'
5. 24Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Midterm Exam.
6. 24 Aug 2010, PERSIS Meeting (PWTC briefing).
7. 24 Aug 2010, breaking fast with Vice Minister of  Malaysia Transportation.
8. 26 Aug 2010, going to PWTC, breaking fast with Sabah Chief Minister.(not confirmed yet)
9. 29Aug 2010, performance at EPCC
10. 30Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Assignment due! (haven't started anything yet!)
11. AGM Report for Karate Club.

this updated version of my works...*huhuh*

the one that highlighted with Aqua...

is the work that already done....

and the one that highlighted with yellow are addition to my works...

well....

it really suits my previous title isn't it???

"One down...Two more coming..."

today i'm being appointed as a secretary for the Karate Club...

this is the position that I tried to avoid up until now...

and then now??

I can't run anymore...

more and more responsible coming in....

*should I happy or sad in this situation?*

One Down...Two More Coming....

last week my burden was lessen a bit...

and now???

hahahahaha....

just like the title mentioned....

now i'm really have lots things to settle....

okay...

let me list it...

1. 19Aug 2010, BM Comprehension test!
2. 21Aug 2010, Day Out! XD
3. 22 Aug 2010, breaking fast with anak-anak yatim at Nurhidayah, Perak..
4. 23Aug 2010, English oral presentation titled ' what I want to improve about myself?'
5. 24Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Midterm Exam.
6. 24 Aug 2010, PERSIS Meeting.
7. 26 Aug 2010, going to PWTC, breaking fast with Sabah Chief Minister.(not confirmed yet)
8. 29Aug 2010, performance at EPCC(also not confirmed yet)
9. 30Aug 2010, Organizational Behavior Assignment due! (haven't started anything yet!)

in a week time...

there are sooooo many things to be settled...

is this a practice for me to become the next Chief Minister??*In my dream la~~~*

hahahhahah....

luckily for the OB Midterm I have done some early revision...

left 1more chapter to revise...

if the performance at EPPC is confirmed...

thats mean every night have to practice....

well...

this haven't include the tutorials that need to do every week....

BM,BI,Finance...

wah~~~

don't know if I have enough energy to do all these...

now I'm in the trial of fasting...

*DIET PLAN+FINANCIALLY BROKE*

gambatte ne?

if other people can do it why not me???

I cannot lose!!!

This is me!

even if I fall down...

i will always get up...

thanks to all people that supported me....Love you all....

XOXOXOXOX